I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
phew... after finishing the work of the Lord on wednesday, the enemy find no time in troubling me.. and of coz, it reminds me to seek the face of the Lord Almighty coz there is nothing HE is not able to do! i was a bit disturbed when the school administrator called me to inquire abt the way we used the club fund and said that we are not supposed to use it for certain activities. i told her i dunno abt that, and she said that they have explained to us aredi. i was like.. huh? when? i rem i was abit lost when i 1st started the club. that was nobody for me to ask, and whenever i nd something, i hv ask around. and now she is telling me that they have met us up? anyway, she wants to meet us up to brief us. i was disturbed alrite. but, i choose to take it in a good manner. and pray that God will caused me to say the right thing.
this incident has also indeed reminded me to seek the face of the Lord. i realised that i hvnt been praying for this ministry for a rather long time. and as i compared to how karen was praying while preparing for the tertiary camp, i realised it was a far cry from wat she did. yes! we must always seek the face of the Lrod, no matter how busy we are. no matter how many things we have in mind and in our hands. praying is always the most productive. like wat we did in the tertiary camp. being vigilant in prayer and thanksgiving! thank God that He always remind us of His presence and goodness! :)
i reali pray that i may favour in the sight of the school administrator and not forget the oinitial purpose of setting this club. may we not forget. He who has started this good work in us, will bring it to a perfect finish! Amen!
Therefore, since we have this ministry, as we have receievd mercy, we do not lose heart. But we have renounced the hidden things of shame, not walking in craftiness nor handling the word of God deceitfully, but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God. 2 cor 4:1, 2
it has been a glorious moment in the Lord for the past few days. The Lord has been good and His presence was with us for the last few days in the hostel. it really is the kindness and love of God that leads ppl to repentance. nobody can boast and glories in himself for all He has done! i was personally very encouraged for wat has happened. many has come into the Kingdom of God and many have heard the Good News! the people has been so open! Thanks be to God for His inexpressible grace! i have learnt many things too. of coz, all of us were so tired too but it is all worth it! in fact, i was so tired that i slept from 5pm to this afternoon, 12pm!!
frankly speaking, i am so glad i was part of the whole thing. especially putting hands to the field where i can never do it in church or in school. i am also so glad to c so many fellow labourers passonate to winning souls into the Kingdom of God. wat had happened was indeed more than wat i have expected! and the words that was given when we prayed all came to pass! the Lord has indeed been with us for those days. oh, the tangible presence of God!
personally, the Lord has revealed things in my life too. i noe that those are things that have always been present in my life. i was sad to noe that they r still there, but yet encouraged that at least they are revealed to my knowledge. i need to press on, and continue to press in! i definitely do not want to fall short of wat i was intended for. and i have to say that although these few days were good and God was present with us, i am not satisfied! somehow, there's a deep cry within me that wants to noe Him even more! not just His presence! i WANT TO KNOW MORE OF HIM!! there is indeed more than just seeing souls saved but also the knowing Him! thats after all wat we are created for. oh, that yearning in the heart that always continually calls out to Him!
quite long din blog. life has been exciting and busy working for the Kingdom of God! share more when im free!! just looking forward to God's miraculous intervention for the ppl and during the camp!!! :D
Let all glory be ascribed unto Him and that no flesh glories in His sight!!! :)
this is a blog that stir up some thoughts in me due to an episode that happened a few days ago. well, not realli a big thing lah.
well, i realised...
u have the option to be offended or not be offended.
ok, not so much of a realisation or a revelation but more of an experience that will reinforced of wat i've always felt. that day, i was a bit offended coz i misinterepreted wat my fren said. but y would i get offended? if u look deeper in the matter, it is because i am aredi insecure and unhapi or mayb a bit guilty coz it is true in a way. or is something in me that i noe always existed but i cant change it. --> actuali, i beg to differ. coz we are a new creation in Christ! we do not have to drag ur old man with us, and said, "well, im always lidat one, cant change one."" i am hapi the way i am, dun change me."; " well, if God wants to change me, He will in His time, dun try to persuade me or change me now."; "i noe im bad, but i reali cant change." well, they are all but excuses or self deception! if u cant change, then God is a liar.
back to whr i wanted to say. y will ppl get offended? basically coz someone said something that happened to hit ur raw spot! meaning, something in ur life that u r insecure with, and when ppl say something abt that area, u got offended! is some sort of a self mechanism that will work up when u got hit, to prevent urself from getting hurt! well, but the truth is, u got hit aredi lah. is more than often, the area that ppl said is usuali true, and something u want to ignore. something u wished wasnt there. of coz, it also means something we might have to change. that is why we can say the same thing to 2 difft ppl, and 1 might get offended, while the other may not. y? coz the one who got angry has that issue in his/here life that caused him/her to react.
and then, theat person actuali has got 2 options to react.
1. to be offended, and continually be offended 2. to be not offended or initially might be offended, but realised the wrong in him/her, and procced to change. and it all matters how u are taking that piece of watever u like to call advice, criticism, etc.
the bible says that it is impossible that offends will not come. yar, impossible! does that surprise u? but the impt thing is ur attitude towards that offence. and many ppl react difftly. they will 1. look at this matter in a horizontal manner. get offended, and decide that person is not worthy to be ur fren and not worthy to listen to. next time, when the person toks, ignore. ok, u may be thinking, wat if that person reali reali toks nonsense? well, u r still offended isnt it? im toking abt u here! not that person. 2. looking vertically Godward. recognised that there is that thing u nid to change and mayb God wants to pinpoint and use that person to reveal that in u. (and that person may not be a saint himself). and u accept it, repent and change. reali there's no such thing of i will only forgive when is time for me to forgive. when God makes me forget all those grievances that the other person have caused me. if u can forget, praise God, it is the grace and mercy of God to let u forget. but the very 1st place, is how we respond to the matter. that is wat God desires to c. and be Christlike.
the Lord Jesus is so servant-like and forgiving that even on that cross, He asked for the forgiveness of those who has crucified Him, and that is us! truely, watever things we experienced, when we placed it next the cross and His sufferings. ha. ours are like child's play. and that is we nd to forgive everybody, though that may not be easy. be to forgive to good for u too. unforgiveness and bitterness in us will reflect on our face as time passes. and thats..hmm..ugly!
i like wat one of the members in the cell shared ydae during cg, he quoted, "Beware brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing from the living God; but exhort from one another daily, while it is called ,'Today,' lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin." i cant emphasize the nd to replent, to change Today. this is taken form the bible. and the warning is to us believers. sometimes our mind just like to twist the scriptures around to suit wat we think is correct instead of the other way round. Romans says we are to be renewed in our minds. those who are in the state of thinking that they can always repent tomorrow or when he feels like it or when he thinks is the the time is in a self-deception. r u in a self-deception?
coz it is truely the mercy of God who enables each and everyone of us to want to repent. i pray that u will not be hardened in ur heart.
on sunday while i was on duty.. (sori not chronological order, if u realised coz i blog by theme.) praying in the spirit... while the praise and worship was going on, i just felt i was very distracted. so i continue to pray in the spirit, asking the Lord to align myself with Him. and i just felt so led to just continue praying in the spiritual language. and while praying, i just felt that the Lord want to say something to me. i tried to listen within, but i just couldnt, while i continue to speak in tongues, and i felt that it is something deep within me that i nd to dig it out.. im not sure if wat i described was appropriate or not, but i meant that it is something deep in our well, that we nd to be able to dig it out. the deep calls to the deep. anyway, i just felt the worship was a bit noisy for me to hear anything as i try to listen and listen deep within me. but i just cldnt hear anything or rather i cldnt get it. felt the scripture in 1 Kings that God is not in the thunderstorm or the earthquake, but He is in the still small voice. i kept that in my heart.
at nite, when i was doing my QT, i started to inquire of the Lord abt this that happened in the morning. and i just felt impressed on 1 Cor abt the part of speaking in tongues in Chap 14. my eyes caught these:
But now, brethren, if I come to you speaking with tongues, what shall I profit you unless I speak to you either by revelation, by knowledge, by prophesying, or by teaching? .. For if the trumpet makes an uncertain sound, who will prepare for battle? ... Even so you, since you are zealous for spiritual gifts, let it be for the edification of the church that you seek to excel. Therefore let him who speaks in a tongue pray that he may interpret. 1 Cor 14: 6, 8, 12-13
as i read, i felt that the Lord has want me to ask Him for the gift of the interpretation of tongues! wow, i got so excited! i knew that the gifts of the Spirit are as it is called 'gifts', so it is fully by the discretion of the Lord. but i felt that this was the Lord's invitation to me to ask Him for the gift! James said that the Lord will give liberally to those who asked from Him. so, yar, im asking the Lord for the gift now! :)
and like i posted later, after i finished my QT, i couldnt sleep so i decided to find something to read, and i went to my bookshelf, and actuali just randomly chose the John Bevere's DrawingNear. honestly speaking, in my opinion, i felt that this wasnt his best book compared to his others, so i dun think it is a coincidence that i actuali picked up that book, and i just flipped thru and i caught sight of the chapter titled, "The Language of Intimacy"..ohh.. i din realise that there is topic title for each chapter. i felt dry when i 1st read this book, after reading abt the 1st 2 chapters, i put it back. so i proceeded to read it, and i realise it is toking abt the heavenly language. wat issit for? the language that speaks to God, etc. wow, i felt this book is linked to wat i have been praying, and it brought much clarity to me.
this morning, i decide to pick up that book agn, and this time, i flipped and i realised that the preceding chapter - The Promise of the Father- is toking abt the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. it explained very very clearly abt the baptism of the Holy Spirit and tongues. honestly speaking, i hv looking into this matter for a some time, im very convinced in speaking in tongues and baptism in the Holy Spirit coz i've got the experience. but then, if u tok to evangelical Christians who dun believe in that, experience is not enuf to convince them, after all, they hv not experienced it themselves. they want proof from the Word of God. (wats the problem with Christians arguing with Christians?) so John Bevere expounded the issue very clearly and rather concisely and even the part in 1 Cor which sometimes reading it caused some confusion also. yes! it is explained in context and from scriptures! but he managed to explain those passages clearly and also distinguished 4 different tongues. it is a commandment to be baptised in the Spirit. wow! i was more convinced than ever aredi!! :)
anyway, just to tok a bit of my experience of my baptism in the Holy Spirit. i was saved in 1998, got water baptised in 1999. being in a Pentecostal church is not exactly ez when i am not Spirit-filled yet, but of coz, i am saved. coz i cldnt feel the presence of God, couldnt speak in tongues when the Pastor asked the congregation to pray in the spirit(of coz, pastor will say, if u dun pray in the spirit, pray in english.. but, hmm..pray wat??). i dun even understd wat the pastor is preaching abt, though in context i think i do, but i not reali also.. and when i read the scriptures, i dun even noe wat it is toking abt.. i will only realised some on and off grammar mistakes...:P and my english quite good one lei. (yar, not by our natural mind, but by the spirit rite? but i somply cant at that time). when i prayed to God, is like toking to myself..hvg a soliloquy.. then the words will bounced off the wall and the ceiling..:P
but even though lidat, i wasnt at all keen to ask for it, or rather i have the attitude of 'if God wants to give me, He will give me, dun nid to ask'. now then, do i noe that God do want us to ask from Him this gift. anyway, it wasnt abt a few years later that i was baptised in the Holy Spirit. i was in a praise and worship service and i started to speak in tongues and i actuali din noe i was speaking till i realised i was speaking in tongues!Praise the Lord! the atmosphere was different straight way! i actuali felt the spirit-realm opening up to me, i felt the presence of God, i cld understd the scriptures and best of all, God seemed real to me for the 1st time!(though, in faith, i believed i was saved, and there is God, i was still struggling coz im not living in it.) So, this experience caused me to believe in speaking in tongues and baptism in the Holy Spirit coz it caused me to live differently! :D
[ yar, i got it very late in comparison with most Pentecoastal and Charismatic Christians, but the delay of getting the gift caused me to appreciate it even more! ]
today is my 1st paper for exams.. got there ard 3-4 min late. kinda estimate my time wrongly... jurong to expo leh! and still hv to rush to chk my seating position. thank God, my seat is not that far away and not difficult to find.. im the 932nd candidate.. *gasps* anyway, i dunno wat happen, but the chief examiner asked to c the 933rd candidate after the paper.. wah..that means the person behind me.. and the kpos curious, start looking ard, and have wat-happened-huh? look. actuali b4 that announcement, while the invigilators were collecting papers, i aredi heard them asking one another, " eh, so shld we collect 933's papers?" not i kpo k? is that 933 is behind me 932. (wah, like no name one.. sounds like criminal..got bian hao.. kidding... jus that i think there were simply too MANY candidates for them to handle liao).
anyway, ydae cldnt sleep the whole night. i wonder y.. definitely is not that i was stressed over my paper. i think the most i only slept 1 or 2h.. in those semi-conscious state.. :( i was thinking... Maths paper leh, cant sleep... aiyo... actuali i realised that quite often, after i did my QT, i couldnt sleep... not sure if coz the Lord wants to continue seeking Him, or im just too over brain active. think i will hv to ask Him though.
actuali, seemed like quite a lot of things to blog.. thought this will only going to be a short entry. but turn out, hmm... guess coz i hvnt been blogging for a few days bah. ok, i will make a difft entry from this one coz i blog my title or rather theme...
anyway, i nd to confess something( of coz, i confessed to my Father-in-heaven liao). today when i reached the exam hall and i was late, i actuali complained a bit, thinking of how i cldnt sleep, and i arrived late at the exam hall, and when i flipped open my maths paper.. i was like *eyes open big big* and told myself to calm down. i dunno how to do most of them lor! this year's questions were different from the past years' papers. and it doesnt help that im lousy in maths, and im actuali in a resit! (i may nd to resit again!! thats a re-resit...*sob*) ok, so wat am i to confess? i actuali said to God, "oh, y lidat? y are You doing this to me??" yar..lousy rite? but i quickly try to sweep off that statement off my mind coz i realised is wrong! but of coz, it also meant it is something that i hvnt overcome, and is hiding in my heart. but i din thot of confessing my mistake or ask forgiveness from Him... sori...
after the exams, i heard a lot of ppl say the paper's very difficult this yr and many ppl stuck somewhr and cldnt finish the questions. when i heard that, i was relief in a way, mayb self-consoling, that i m not the only one...haha...
ok, cut the story short, i start travelling home. b4 that, i decide to have lunch b4 i head back home. and while eating, i decided to continue reading the book(John Bever's Drawing Near) i was reading on my way to the exam hall (amazed that i actualli hv the mood to read rite?). and i thot i would like to read the chapter on "true worship" coz im always very interested in the topic of "worship", after finishing 2 other chapters abt tongues. and i read something:
" I'll never forget the time when God confronted me on this. I had been working very hard to refrain from any sort of complaining. I had come to realise complaining is an affront to God's character, as complaining says to God, "I don't like what You are doing, and if I were You I would do it differently." It is a lack of holy fear and God hates it; in fact, it destroyed the children of Israel's opportunity to enter into the promised land."
the bold n italic part is the part that caught my attention, and of coz, the Holy Spirit's conviction. I confessed it immediately and ask for forgiveness. reali nd that fear of the Lord in my life, isnt it? noeing that God is soverign and who are we to question Him? but of coz, His plans and purpose for us are all good. :) His ways are higher than our ways.
actuali, while blogging this, i got a bit upset while msn-ing with a fren.. i think he doesnt meant it the way i interpreted, but i think im a bit offended. sigh.. and is true in a way. mayb thats y i got offended.. but i reali tried my best. and i hv alredi asked a lot of grace from the Lord! i literalli felt that i was relying on His grace to do my Maths paper! yes, my maths is that bad! *pathetic hor*?
(ok, i hvnt kept a history of my msn, so here's roughly how the conversation went)
me: im goin jogging later and do my a/cs later. paper this fri.
me: today maths paper. dun reali noe how to do... :( mayb have to resit nx yr again...
him: is ok lah. if u din try ur best.
me:huh? din try my best?
me: so u think that of me ar?
me: ok lor [obviously, can sense that i am not happy liao... so he give me a...]
him: haha
him: i dun meant it that way
him: i said in a matter of factly
me: oh, so u mean is a matter of fact that i din try my best lah
him: i dun meant it in the way u think... i believe u try ur best[ at this point, i was like, so wat do u mean?? did i try my best then?? ]
him: but if u wan to think in that way...
me: ...
me: i dunno wat to say liao...
then some silence.
think he also dunno wat to say. and i decided actuali i was quite mean, though im happi, and i gave him the benefit of the doubt that he said he din meant the way i think he was thinking. arghh.. reali abit upset coz im struggling like mad liao and he said im not trying my best?? of coz, i hv to say i did not reali spend that much time as i shld hv since my maths was so so terrible...
so, i decide to break the ice.
him: whr r u going to play badminton?
then the conversation continues...
post-blog: after thinking thru, i think i noe wat he was trying to say. he was actuali trying to console me that if i din try my best, is ok if i failed. something lidat?
correct or not? if u r reading the blog.
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post-post blog:ok. so i got the msn thingy a bit wrong. and we have cleared up the misunderstanding... so i decide to post here wat was the correct conversation coz he got saved his msn conversations.
me: today my maths cant make it, might nd to resit again.
him: hai, as long as u tried your best.. if u never tried your best, then .......
me: never? hm.. u think that of me? ok lor.
him: I never thinkg that of u hor. I just saying a matter of factly. but I believe u got try your best ...
me: well, then is a matter of fact u think I did not try my best.
him: well, if u want to think that way, I also bo bian ... although I dun mean that.
me: ...
me: I duno what to say ...
that is wat i got from his site. but hm, dunno if he got edit something coz i obviously rem he got a "haha" in between, or maybe he just exclude that coz is not impt. anway, if u read both accounts, u will realised is a bit difft coz mine is my own memory and interpretation. so, u c, men's (generic) memory and interpretations are never reali reliable.
anyway, this episode caused some thots in me. which i will blog in another entry. abt offends and our hearts. :)
this afternoon was on my way to church. and i was a bit pissed off or not reali lah, just thinking..aiyo, y lidat one?? u noe wat happened? the mrt actuali not v full... got abt 6 seats empty. BUT u noe wat? they are all those in-between seats and those ppl who are on the left and right of the seats are like opening their legs real wide or occupying like one and a half seats! yes! u got it! they are guys lor! so inconsiderate! imagine the mrt lidat, and many ppl chose to stand instead of squeezing in between them. GUYS! not gentlemen at all, u noe?? see so many ppl still sit until lidat...
then, when im on my way back home, i took the mrt again. and guess wat? mrt is v pack..(wonder y? coz is friday nite??) but then, all the ppl who are sitting down are all... yar..u are right! mostly guys leh! y lidat one???
ok, im not saying that all guys must let the gers sit... but just that, is like not right. ok, im a lady of the 21st century, but i think guys still must act gentlemanly... i actuali dun mind ppl opening the door for me, pulling out the chair and letting me go before them.. i dun actuali..haha... i love to be pampered.. heehee..
toking abt that, one of my cousin is a real gentleman! when i went to visit him in msia, he will accompany me and sis to go shopping, and he din complain at all, even when i told him mayb he can go somewhr to rest and after we finished, we can call him, but he good naturedly said is alrite. he will accompany us. and he will let us go on the escalator 1st... etc, etc. now, i heard he has got himself a wonderful gerfren and they hv engaged aredi.
so wats the point of this entry? i dunno too.. juz thot i simply hv to tok abt the scenario i happened to be in. of coz, there are good and gentlemanly guys around.. but getting lesser by the day. and of coz, im not only toking abt gentlemen lah.. but the inconsideration of those ppl.
is almost 2.30am, im still online... reali nd to sleep early.. actuali kinda tired.. hmm.. anyway, i failed miserably of wat i said i shld not do miserably.. abstain! >.< anyway i noe that if im not in the Vine, i cannot grow... and of coz, all these just reveals the condition of my heart. not something new, but that God chose to reveal those things that are not purified to me agn!
i nd to be ready! cell mulitplying. i noe i will hv a greater part to play in. nd to step out in faith and out of my comfort zone, although not in my own strength coz i realised whenever in my own strength, i will always be just so so tired at the end of it!
God helped me! i want to die, die to myself. im always so full of pride, so full of myself. so care abt my reputation, of wat others will think of me! God, let me remember that i no longer belong to myself, but You when u bought me with a price! it is no longer i that lived, but Christ who lives in me!let me like the apostle paul who count all things as dung! his reputation, his education, even his heritage. everything. Lord, take them! help me to lay them down at Your feet!
another thing that has been annoying me.. it is this person whom i reali want to treat with a tok-to-my-hand attitude. i noe im mean, but i juz something cldnt stand this person. ok, i dun wanna name this person here. not a very nice thing to do. and for ur info, this person is actualli a not bad person, just that it happens that, he tries too much (ok, he is a "he"). tries too much to think he noes me alot, he noes me very well, tries too much to get near me. and of coz, tries to hv the same interest as me. but im reali not interested. and i dunno how well i can hint aredi, which i think is pretty obvious... either he pretends not to noe, or well.. arghh, dun wanna tok abt it anymore. i think im mean. well, u wun noe wat im trying to say... or do u?
im turning in. going to do my Quiet Time. i need it badly!
i think the past few days, in the midst of my v free time..(actuali, not v free, i shld be revising! my exams cmg u noe? :( ).. anyway, i hv been reading a lot of things online... sigh... and i think i hv been reading all the wrong things! tsk tsk..not useful to my spiritual life at all... i noe i will sound very kua zhang to the non-believers, maybe Christians too... BUT..thats the truth! ok, wat hv i been reading?
ydae nite been reading the (pronounce: dee.. yes! DEE) xiaxue blog... haha.. i din even noe she is the no.1 voted blogger in spore! wah! thats quite something for a just-turned 21 ger isnt it? i entertained myself..haha...but im still not sure y she is the no. 1 blogger leh for the few articles i read. i think her old entries were better... mayb coz now she has to add some entertainment element in it huh, no matter wat? some parts seemed a bit fake leh. well, if anyone of u is a xiaxue fan 'blogder' (term coined by her) pls dun cm #hamtum me k?! jus speaking wat i feel.
anyway, wat other things? i actuali was searching something abt crucifixion, then i somehow got to link to the Nanking Massacre, the Japanese Occupation and other things. arghh.. and i shudder at the thought of i have read... not edifying at all. though i hv to say the crucifixion is so scary! and yar, the persecution period of the Christians are even scarier... and i reali dun wan to imagine or think wat will be coming! like i said before.. i think in some other entries.. it will be probably a v v serious and frightening thing that will come! (those 2 adjective is an understatement of how i felt.. pardon me for my lack of vocab.. argh.. english 'deprove' more and more due to my highly effectively singlish! >.<) coz, now alredi so jialat (aiya..cant even think of a english word for it! oh no~ THATS A V BAD SIGN!), anyway, (stop dgressing! maybe i shld trying Sylvia Plath's stream of consciousness... :P oh no, she is a depressed one) Jesus said that there will be more famines, dissaters, wars, but all these are only BEGINNING of sorrows. then how? and he said there will be the GREAT tribulation. so? wat does it mean? He would not haver said is a GREAT tribulation if it is not...
i hv been reading articles in talkingcock.com - a spore satrical website toking abt spore politics and singlish.. some quite funnie, but the more i read, the more distasteful it became. i hv no problem with singlish at all! but aiyo, the singlish they hv sounds so #beng-ish and utter crude! the more i read, the more i cant #tahan.. u mean, u mean, sporeans reali tok lidat!! i dun reali think so. at least, the normal sporeans dun tok lidat, every sentence with a vulgarity or hokkien.. like..sooo crude! although many do add those things into their everyday lives, but not to their extent k? i think many mostly end their sentence or peppered their sentence with "lah", "lor", "hor", etc.. and a bit of malay, chinese, hokkien oor watever into their 'engrish'. and of coz sentence construction and structure not very corright lah(yar, got this from the website - a twist of 'correct'). but not those beng-ish terms! anyway, mayb they relai want to exaggerate singlish in their site since it is supposed to be a satrical site! but not funny leh... i think some things are overdone and thus becomes distasteful.
yar, and somehow, i took a liking to read the columns in the newspapers. hey not the rows and columns lah *lame* the columnists! some of them rather interesting and funnie in their own way. also more of a satrical kind of humour... ha...
well, i reali felt i hv been reading things that are sowing to my flesh! the thought of it..hm..tsk tsk..shld stop myself at reading them. they are "delicious" to the mind and fleshly desires nonetheless... thats y my soul wants to read them...aiyo, cant let them permeate into my spiritman! we reap wat we sowed! u will become wat u read!
let me read u something i read from Paul Caram's commentary of 1 Peter (btw, u realised i actuali read quite a bit, #hor? *wink*)
"Abstain" is a word that involves the will. We may choose to walk the walk of wisdom or we may choose not to and thy be ensnared. If we sow to the Spriit, we will reap life. but if we sow to the flesh, we shall reap corruption. When a person reads the wrong material or looks at pornography, he is sowing to the flesh. Listening to sensual music and being enamoured by evil musicians is sowing to the flesh. Watching endless operas with their continual extrammartial affairs is sowing to the flesh. If you are in the wrong places with the wrong friends - it won't be long before you fall.We must not play with the emotions of others, or with our own emotions. This is sowing to the flesh. (Gal 5:16, 6:7, 8)
Although these are acts of our will, I am not emphasizing the strength of the will. We always need grace (divine enablement) to help us make the right decisions and to help us sow to the Spirit. If we walk in the Spirit, we will not fulfill the lusts of the flesh. We need a life of wroship, a life of prayer, and a life of walking with good people. We must seek to be filled with the Spirit, or we will be filled with something else.