I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
搞笑 during Chinese New Year, i had many activities. so many.. but at the back of mind, i wasnt happy at all. something just loomed behind me all the time. i think the song by show luo quite aptly describe my feelings as i was "fooling" around.
i really feel like a failure ever since i took on this job. wasnt getting any better. i was feeling worst day by day. i got to say im looking forward to my last day there. but on hindsight, that again isnt it another failure? i cant stand it that i actuali cldnt conquer it and move on. just thoughts of running away from it. It will be another black spot on my life. i dragged myself to work on wed. how sad is that?
aiyo.. why my post have been consistently unhappy.. tsk tsk.. got to post my happie stuff man. dun wanna look back at my post and just read all my unhappy things... but then, wat is there happie about? hmm...
actually life itself shld be a celebration. the fact that im alive shld be a joyful thing! i am trying to live out my life with "sufficient courage" and love it! though at the moment, i have been on and off asking God why is He doing all these to me... sighz.. and i dare to say in my head i keep thinking life actuali sucks! :P well, it may an politically incorrect ans, but is true! but the moment i think that wat im going thru are just some rehearsals, i cheer up again! i got to learn from mistake and stand up again. face the music and enjoy it! (i hope o_0).
God might be just speaking to me.. i was listening to my podcast ydae and unknown to me, the 3 consecutive msgs spoke of the same thing - finishing well! wow.. so wats that... finishing well is of utmost important..so i must look forward and reach forward to my upward call of God - to know HIm and make Him known! amen!
talking abt this seems to make my life happier...haha... i need a clearer direction in life. last day in scgm will be end march..afterwhich, i will like to just rest for a mth or 2 before looking for something else... i know i got to slow down n listen to the Lord or watever i do are just waste of my time. to be in the will of God is impt. yes. i noe. and i learned a bit more abt it. His ways are always higher than ours!
there are certain things for consideration... and i got to pray, i noe! :D
"Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so... "~~
at the back of my mind... there seems to be something there... always there, bothering me.
看著好笑的电视jie目。笑完了也就是这样而已。算是皮笑肉不笑吧。
那喜樂跑哪了?
也許自以為了解自己的我根本就不懂。
maybe i really duno how to handle stress.
maybe is just a season...
haiz... but after this time, i only began to really understand one thing - that is to know the will of the Lord and the direction for yourself. yes. the Lord is always gracious.
走錯了他會原諒,也會憐憫。但隻是自己會辛苦一點。自己要過自己這關。也學會了很多,認識自己也多了。then is that a gain after all? haha
well, we all need to learn to walk on our own. learn to get up after falling down.
some people might fear to get up and walk again and choose just sit there. some people may choose to continue learning to walk.. fall they might, but up they go and walk again. and then some people may choose to sit down for a little bit more, overcome their fear and start trying to walk again.
courage! - fear is normal. the key is not to be afraid. but the key is to be able to overcome the fear and obtain courage!