I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
too much that i had to leave. i had to escape. i had to run away.
on hindsight, i was wondering y i could not see it. ppl around me were all telling me the same thing. - i was being abused.
no wonder i always wonder y those victims who suffered abuse from their spouse or boyfren will always end up going back to them. now i understand wat went thru their mind.
well, of cos mine wasnt a case of domestic violence or any sort. it was abuse anyhow.
somehow i wondered y did God let this happen to me twice. once of spiritual abuse and another emotional abuse. was it to teach me something i did not learn the first time? what is He showing me? that leaders are not perfect...AT ALL? if He is, then maybe He really is cruel to me. perhaps He is cruel.. in a way.. like the scripture says, " it pleased the Lord to bruise His son." what kind of a father is that? we will never understand the depth of that until perhaps we reached heaven...
still i believe and trust in Him. sure, i was angry with Him for letting me into these again and again. i was angry with Him for making me a fool again and again. when i put in my best in all that i did. but they always end up futile. sometimes i wonder... if i were to just work in the secular perhaps is really easier. sometimes non Christian bosses are really much easier to work with. secular places are also easier to work in. and ur pay is higher. if thats the case, who would want to work in the non secular places? perhaps that is why is call willing to pay the price.
im willing to pay the price for the hard work. willing to pay the price for the miserable pay. but im simply unwilling to pay the price that comes with the slaves-drivers that mistreat these harvest workers and treat them like slaves. we are to work with an excellent spirit, sacrifice our time, sacrifice the money we can earn outside. but not that kind of abuse.
perhaps God really has to do something. i duno wat. but He has to.
sometimes im wondering abt the irony of the whole matter. we are in christian work because we want to lead ppl to salvations. yet at the same time, us workers are stumbled by these leaders who are doing things that are so obviously not out of love and out of line.
so task oriented to get things done, that they forget to do things out of love. so task oriented to jsut get the programme done. but if u look deeper, wat is the aim of that? to bring ppl to Christ! hence it became a negation equation. u try to bring ppl in on ur left hand and pushing ppl out from ur right hand...
haha... it is 可笑 when i think of this...
i really dun meant to be cynical or critical. but thats the fact.