I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
lately has been a rather tired period. not sure why. too many things on my mind. slept late. but even when i sleep, many things on my mind too. i din even feel that i slept much... so many thoughts and ideas just come and go... my assignments.. the fear i couldnt finish them... the fear i duno how to do... the thought of whether i should do further studies... the thoughts of my work... the thoughts of pressing in on spiritually and wat i should do... sighz... tiring...
and at the same time... dreams.. many dreams too.. some i can remember, some i dun... but they are all rather interesting dreams... esp the one i had a few days ago... i was trying to recall ydae nite but then i realised i cant really rem everything.. i only remembered tat the dream was so dramatic that i thought it could be shoot into a movie..haha.. however, the dream wasnt a pleasant one.. i wondered if that is a warning... but is really also up to interpretation... i have a few.. but im really praying for an interpretation instead of my own thinking... im just afraid that this dream, i could have mixed up with my own thoughts too... should i write it down here?... hmm.. ok, the dream goes like this:
i was in my room... this room is not my actual room im staying in in reality, but it often appears in my dreams as my room. i could not remember whether it was that i closed the windows, or the windows were already closed, anyway, it was closed. but then, i heard a sound coming from the windows... i thought to myself, is someone trying to come in? but again, i thought that it couldnt be cos the windows were closed anyway, the person wun be able to come in. just as i think of that, a thief actually climbed into my room and i looked at him face to face. i duno if he had come in due to a gap of the window.. meaning i din close it properly or issit the windows werent lock so he can just come in after pushing the windows... and i couldnt remember anything after that...
then the next part i could remember...
i boarded a bus. the moment i walked into it, i could sense a danger... i was considering whether i shld get out of the bus when the bus driver suddenly said that we all should kneel down and asked repentance from God. all the people in the bus went down to their knees and i thought there should not be anything wrong since it is a prayer mtg. so i went on my knees too, but again i sensed something dangerous and i should beware somebody behind me. this then, the person behind me injected something on my hipbone. i felt that my hipbone went numbed and i could not move. i then said to the person, " to think i trust u so much, u actually betray me?" this then, if i did not remember wrongly, the bus driver came forward like wanting to catch me... then the person behind me whispered and said, " no... im just trying to deceive that bus driver, u can run... run quickly.." and i remembered i ran out of the bus...
up to that part, i could not remember anything else... the next part i can remember is that after i ran out of the bus, i was now settling in a rural area... next to me was a run down little house. i think i was staying with someone.. and someone came and visit me... hmm... i think thats all... i think it is a rather dramatic dream... keke...
and ydae nite, i have another dream too... again was a rather long dream but i can only remember 1 specific part... the part one of my cell members was toking to me... i think we were chatting and suddenly he looked at me in my face and said something like this, " joyce, i can see from ur face that ur love is coming..." and i remembered i was rather surprised and replied, " haha.. is that a prophecy or wat?" cos i thought he is trying to make fun of me again but instead he replied with the expression he usually has when he toked about something serious, " no lah. is just that i usually can see such thing..."
yes. and i woke up only remembering that part cos is quite interesting and i was quite surprised too i think. i was asking the Lord something and asked Him to give me a dream for an answer... so i thought this isnt the answer im looking for lei... quite irrelevant... anyway.. i thought this is interesting..haha... could this really be true? i can only wait n see...