I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
this shall be a rather random post of the happenings these few weeks since my last blog.
my exams officially ended yesterday! (Yay!!) and i unofficially graduated yesterday too. haha.. unofficially coz i have yet to convo nor got any of my results. results will be out in sep. convo will be next yr, april. so meanwhile, im still consider a student. according to my sch's regulation. heheh.. anyway, thot my next step will be look for a job, but then, i was thinking of stating work in september. after all, wats the hurry? i will be wkg for the rest of my life anyway. also, i may need to help out at my mum's stall in july. thinking of going for a mission trip in aug(but well, this not confirmed coz i have no moolas and hv not prayed abt it too). so, yep. mayb start looking for job in aug.. my volunteering stint in transworld acually has not ended yet. serene called me the week b4 asking for help but i was still hvg my exams. maybe i shld call her and say im free now. but then, i wanna finished my CAM stuff 1st b4 contacting her. i reali dun wan to do so many things agn, and neglect God. it is so ez to think that im fine just coz im up and bz with so-call God's work. wat sis karen and pst nicky siad is true. it is not just enuf to do the good things, but u nd to do RIGHT thing.
the analogy that was given during camp was... one day, ur wife was going out to do soemthing and she asked u to help with the dirty dishes at the sink. u said ok. so, u started to clean the houses. u started with the bedroom. clearing the trash. washing clothes. mopping the floor.. whoa.. the whole hse looked so so good. everything looks spick and span and u were v please with urself. then, u walked into the kitchen. and u rem that u hvnt washed the dishes. hm... ur wife came back and was so pleased at all the stuffs u done. wah.. everything nice and clean. then, she went to the sink and saw the dirty dishes....
u c.. u can do a lot of good things. but not neccessarily the right thing.
yep. church camp was great. everything was great. the fellowship was great. i felt that there was an improvement in the relationship between phoebe and i and of coz, finna was a great help too. some of us went a day earlier than it should be to go around to have fun. we went to the petaling street and sat on the KLIA express and the msia mrt/lrt.. haha.. my 1st time sitting in their public transport. the other thing that i sat b4 travelling in msia is by car. this was quite an interesting trip.
fellowship aside, the sessions, the speakers were great of coz. but the most impt thing is that God did grace our mtgs. the presence of God was so strong and bondages we believed were broken, lives changed. i personally felt a moving forward and a change in the spirit. it was great to feel that for a person who was feeling frm since duno when. i pray that i will not lose that and the spurring on for spiritual gifts will not die off after the church camp's over. it is so ez to just go back to our old lives once the hype is over and everybody kinda stopped doign all that too. this, i will nd the Lord to deal with me and my life. the fear of man. and pride.
next on, i bought my new guitar after selling away my ibanez. ha. that guitar exceeded my budget by $70. but then, since only $70, i might as well get smthing that i like than to regret like wat i did with my ibanez. :D im downright broke with that guitar. but then, all along i have no savings anyway. i hv always sensed that this is something the Lord wans me to have: to live by faith on Him for finance. that i will not hv savings on my own but rely on Him for it. but, i hasnt had the faith at all in this area. healing was another thing.
i had a dream in the beginning of this year. i knew God is speaking to me abt it but i just have no faith. so the churchcamp had been an encouragement to me, seeing ppl healed and myself healed as well. yep! i was healed of my cold in the camp! praise the Lord! this step in churchcamp is a small step forward and i reali pray i will not back out agn. the test reali came when my sis was quite sick in the hse the day after i rtn from church camp. i wanted to ask her go c a doc. then i was telling myself, y dun i rpay for her? so i told hger i would pray for her, but in the end, i din. sigh.. disappointed at myself. this is something i nd a breakthru in. and noe that it is not ME who healed but GOD who heals! Pst Yang said, if u pray they get heal, if u dun pray, they dun get heal. is ez as that. yar, make sense in my head. i think all in all is coz i still look upon myself who healed coz I AM the one who prayed mah. but that was wrong lah. is GOD not me...
anyway, shall not end at a bad note. my youngest sis asked me to pray for her for speaking i tongues! whoa, cool! the kids nowadays noe wat they want! exciting! she said she wans to speak in tongues... wah.. ok, im going to pray for her later. and pls, dun let myself get in the way again!
ok, some photos frm church camp.
my cell without the cell leader.. haa..
me, lynn and leelee :)
aiyo.. is only now then i realise my face has grown so ROUND! :( tsk tsk.. nd to exercise liao!!
and here's, my youngest sis who went to church camp with me.. haha.. and she 'bullied' my frens..ahhaa