I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
If you ask me to leap Out of my boat on the crashing waves If You ask me to go Preach to the lost world that Jesus saves
I'll go, but I cannot go alone Cause I know I'm nothing on my own But the power of Christ in me makes me strong Makes me strong
Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong When I'm blind, You shine Your light on me Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability How refreshing to know You don't need me So I'll stand on Your truth, and I'll fight with Your strength Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me
If You ask me to run And carry Your light into foreign land If You ask me to fight Deliver Your people from satan's hand
To reach out with Your hands To learn through Your eyes To love with the love of a savior To feel with Your heart And to think with Your mind I'd give my last breath for Your glory
another by casting crowns.. i reali like their songs... :)
2 thought provoking (at least for me, especially the 2nd one) songs below by Casting Crowns
Does Anybody Hear Her
She is running A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction She is trying But the canyon's ever widening In the depths of her cold heart So she sets out on another misadventure just to find She's another two years older And she's three more steps behind
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Or does anybody even knows she's going down today Under the shadow of our steeple With all the lost and lonely people Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
She is yearning For shelter and affection That she never found at home She is searching For a hero to ride in To ride in and save the day And in walks her prince charming And he knows just what to say Momentary lapse of reason And she gives herself away
If judgement looms under every steeple If lofty glances from lofty people Can't see past her scarlet letter And we never even met her
He is running A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
Stained Glass Masquerade
Is there anyone that fails Is there anyone that falls Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small
Cause when I take a look around Everybody seems so strong I know they'll soon discover That I don't belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too So with a painted grin, I play the part again So everyone will see me the way that I see them
Are we happy plastic people Under shiny plastic steeples With walls around our weakness And smiles to hide our pain But if the invitation's open To every heart that has been broken Maybe then we close the curtain On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who's been there Are there any hands to raise Am I the only one who's traded In the altar for a stage
The performance is convincing And we know every line by heart Only when no one is watching Can we really fall apart
But would it set me free If I dared to let you see The truth behind the person That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open Or would you walk away Would the love of Jesus Be enough to make you stay
sigh.. i just been "complained" by my sis that i reali have a bad temper... :( i was quite upset coz i somehow knew is true. and im upset over myself that y issit time after time, despite going for glorious mtgs and mtg God, my temper remains unchanged. i felt irritated and mad at myself. outburst of wrath is definitely not a fruit of the Spirit nor issit of the new man. and i definitely am in the old man when i am angry coz the reason i was angry was that i felt so taken-for-granted sometimes. when i said that, my sis kept quiet. coz i think she noes somewhat wat i said is true. but guess wat. dead man shldnt feel anything.
praise God! i have not been posting here for quite some time. the previous post consisted of a thought of mine, this post will be more of all update of wat i have been doing during these time.
im now a "marketing executive" in my mum's stall. ha. how many of u noe my parents are fishmongers? heh. so, im literally in the marketplace. haha. will be there for a month till my mum comes back from her near one-month holiday. 1st to china, then to england. great isnt it? it shld be a good rest for my mum.. i hope. hee. im reali not sure if she will like those places that she chose coz she isnt exactly a scenic person. anyway, yesterday i thought to pray for her before she flew off, but somehow i drew back. sigh. not the 1st time, and i really hope to make it the last time! i wanna show my love and concern to her thru Christ's way.
anyhow, wat Pst Daphne shared before we break camp, impacted me in a way. we must all rise to action and live. she said something rather interesting. she said God said to her that sometimes we Christians are in such a hurry to die, that we duno how to live. and the ppl around us are dying. u noe wat it means? means we are not teaching those unsaved ppl how to live coz all we care is to die. and she said, when we are alive in Christ, we will be dead in the flesh! wat sobering thought! i have never thought in that way before.
this yr's tertiary camp, IMO, is such a different and impactful one that the ones i have before and it will be my last one, afterall i have graduated. im not sure why, but im really seeing God doing something different this time round in the camp, not to add that the evangelistic nite was great too! and i believed God will be also doing something mighty in the campuses too! and im adding SIM into the campuses. do u believe that revival will come into SIM?? i really believe! we have to catch the ppl in the unis before they go out to the dog-eat-dog world, before all of them got battered and hurt without noeing Christ and all they noe in their head will be money, cars, the 'C's and climbing up the career ladder! isnt that sad? coz the focus are all wrong? thats y we Christians all ought to go out and do something! of coz, not forcing Christ down ppl's throat, there is a time for salvation, but we all have the responsibility to share Christ. is not for us. but for Him. Proverbs says that it is wise to save souls. and we all are given the Great Commission. as i thot abt the ppl, my heart goes out to them.
this brings me down to the Guitar Club. i noe we have started as an outreach club and im afraid that im maybe the only one who has that vision. but im beckoning all of u to have a bigger vision. see the guitar club as a place of sowing seeds even if u dun somehow believe that we are able to save souls thru this club. if the club became just a guitar club in the future, just let it be. but while u are at work, pls do as much as u can. maybe in the future, we will see those ppl in the club coming to our churches, or see them in our workplace. if u dun see guitar club as an outreach club, see it as a secular club but u having a heart for evangelism for the ppl! somehow, im getting excited and emotional as i toked abt it. can u hear my heart? and most imptly, can u hear God's heart? some ppl sow seeds, some ppl waters, some ppl plants and some ppl reaps but ALL gets the same reward! and yes, everyone gets the same reward! we dun wan to be narrow minded in the way we see things. and i admitted that i was narrow minded in certain degrees. and also having an old mindset. we need to have a renewed mindset and see things as God sees. during the camp, i felt that i was not having good eyes. and not having the good report in my head. i see many things as obstacles. as giants. is like the spies who were sent out to spy the land and all they see were the giants in the land, and that is not pleasing at all to God. let us all have the eyes of faith to believe God can do wonders. and i do sense that God is doing something in SIM. let us nt draw back to go forward in wat we are doing!
the camp has been great. it has done something in my life. is great coz im starting the next phase in my life. i was in confusion for the last few mths, but things have change in for the better when i surrendered to the Lord. im glad i will nt be entering into my workplace with a mind and spirit of confusion and uncertainty. God is good. is always good to spend time with the Lord. not to get a burn out. we will get a burn out when there is no grace. let us pray for grace from God. :)
prior to this camp, i was helping out at CfaN for 2 to 3 weeks after my exams officially ended. i was helping out for the Fire Conference. it was tiring but it was all worth it. there were only 4 staffs in the CfaN office and they were the one who organised the entire event of a few thousand ppl. tok abt grace! and in the Fire Conference, truly God is in the midst of us. and Reinhard Bonnke is really a man of God, full of fire for the Lord even at the age of 66. Paul Baloche is another man worth toking abt. a humble worship leader with a heart for God. not to mention great skills. ha.
yep, my life has been such. not that much things but yet all life-transforming for me. can i say that this year is considered a renewed encounter with the Lord after that encounter 4, 5 years ago? im not sure but it really changes something in me, just like the encounter i had with God abt 4, 5 years ago. Praise God! :)
just wondering if my life is not for the Lord, wat is there in this life? will i be successful? will i be doing the right thing? will i be rich and not happy? will i be really missing something in my life? after all, the Bible has made clear that we are made for His pleasure and His will, so that means, if we insisted in our own ways, and not doing His ways, will we be truly happy or successful in life? this is a question i would like to post here.
God gives us free will. it is not a compulsion nor issit legalistic. we are free to do wat we want. but the thing is: will we be happy? God is not a God who is out to destroy ur life by taking wat u like or forcing us to do things we dun wan to. God is a giver of life and a loving Father who gives good gifts who adds no sorrow in it! i think some of us (or maybe a lot of us) will wan to have this renewed mind. coz i noe some just think that God definitely will made us do things we dislike, give us spouses that we dun like the look of. if thats the case, isnt God just a sadist? of coz not! think in this case, if u r a parent, and ur child of mayb 5 yrs old is wanting a bottle of wine that looks nice to him, will u give the child? of coz not! why? coz u dotes on ur child and noes that the wine is bad for him. the bottle looks nice to the child, but it is in fact poison for the child. see then, issit love or issit deprivation?
again, back to the point. will i be truly happy or successful if i insisted the way i want to go and to be. i can really be rich but at the end of my life finds that i have not did wat i shld, isnt that futile and sad? im not sure if i have managed to say wat i wanna say here. my thoughts are all just in circles.
so, wat is the conclusion? do His will. not only just doing, but delighting in His will. and i will be truly successful and happy in my life :) Lets hear wat King Solomon said at the end of his life after he has gotten everything in his whole life: he is the richest, the smartest in the whole world, but he turned his back on God later in his life and actuali started the book of Ecclesiastes with "Vanity of vanities, all is vanity". i really do not want to say that in my life when at the end then i realised all things that i have done are all but in vain.
Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is man's all. For God will bring every work into judgment, including every secret thing, whether good or evil. Eccl 12:14