I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
bro nds help. mum nds help. dad nds help. family nds help! professional help!
as for myself, thank God for His kindness. i started my services at TWR yesterday. believe that im going to learn many things from serene, the person i will be wkg closely together. she used to be the producer at fm 93.3 and 97.2 whe she decided to move on and served the Lord wholeheartedly when the stations want to keep her asking her to give them counter-offers. but with a step of faith, she quit the position at the stations. can sense that she is a spiritual woman even amidst of conversation. has a sense of holy reverent and sensitive to the Holy Spirit. :) im so glad to have her as my co-worker. ha!
met up sebas, eliz and jon ydae to make up something for the upcoming concert, but din manage to get anything in the end. so we walk here and there and have some food too.
i went for my counselling class thereafter. enjoyed the class. ydae was on self-awareness. the awareness of the belief systems and values we are brought up with causes us to make up certain decisions. sometimes with colored lenses. this has to taken off when we do counselling. not say that we agree with watever things that counselee says but make sure we dun be bias and be congruent. be real and genuine is the most impt thing.
hm..was looking around to see wat kind of job i would like to take on after i graduate. and i realise. i aint got any idea! *panic panic* ha.. ok.. not reali, after all, i still have plenty of time.. err.. like half a yr's time? *oh dear*
ok, shall leave it to my dear Pa in heaven to decide for me. after all, He noes best! *beaming*
and wat i nd to do now is to tackle my not-v-impt-exams in march and my FINAL FINAL exams in may/june. ahhaa.. then im free... and to get caught in another cage agn. :( hopefulli not. hope that will be something that is meaningful and adds color to my life :) ok, i think b4 i undertake my next phase of life, i will be relaxing in my church camp. ha. then i shall consider whether i shall go for my next missions trip. im interested. but thats beside the point.
ok. shifting my gear to 2.
forward!
btw, did i tell u that i din go to sch agn? i can only continue to do this for the next half of my year.. afterwhich.. wkg liao..cannot aredi.. jus let me enjoy the joy of pontang-ing coz i wun have the chance in the future agn..ahha
im rather pissed off by some anal people who cant accept apologies properly when someone called wrongly over the phone. or watever u call that. somehow, im at a loss of words. and it happened that they are all guys. ok. thats a sweeping statement. i only met 2. but im certain there are more out there!
just now i tried to fax something to a company. so i tried and i realised no one is picking up the fax. by this, i meant the paper. so i decided to call. and someone picked up the phone.
me: hi, is this yew tee? he: yes. wat? me: im trying to fax something over... he: huh? wat? me: im from abc company trying to fax the statement over... (im helping my dad...) he: huh..? (hear him toking to someone in the background and then he just "cap" the phone lidat..)
i was rather pissed. i mean i could guess i got the wrong number but cant that man be a bit more polite and have something in his brains to ask properly who i am or say i call the wrong number? instead of giving me that kind of idiotic and disgruntled sound. especially that kinda of single syllabic answer of "huh?" "wat"? and especially the last part when he just "cap" the phone. no manners at all man!!
this is the 1st time. the last time was even worse than this. i called the wrong number and it rang for quite long. and someone picked up the phone. after some "hellos", both of us realised that i have called the wrong number.
he: wrong number? me: err..yar, i think so. sori. he: f*** you
wah! i was like 'wats the matter with u"???!!! i aredi said sorry and u have to be so vulgar. wah lau eh. anyway, when i shared with some of my frens, they all said "maybe he was very bz when i called, thats y it rang for very long b4 he picked up the phone. and i have to call the wrong number..." , "maybe he was hanky panky and i called at the wrong time", "mayb he tripped over something or watever just to get that phonecall and is the wrong one"., "maybe, maybe..."
watever that might be, i still dun think he has to say that!!*angry*
Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead How long till my hunger is fed They say it's hard to make it in this part of town So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology Some turn to crystal balls To find an answer, To get through it all I just fall on my knees and I try to pray In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides Out to the ocean and under the sky I promise you, the answer will come Hold on to patience and watch for the sign Everything in its time
I often feel like I'm two steps behind Somebody must have moved that finish line There are a thousand reasons Why I should give up But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides Out to the ocean and under the sky I promise you, the answer will come Hold on to patience and watch for the sign 'cause maybe there's another plan One I still can't see A little surprise, like your love in my life Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides Out to the ocean and under the sky I promise you, the answer will come Hold on to patience and watch for the sign Everything in its time Everything in its time
have been listening to corrinne may's songs these two weeks. now then i now y so many like her songs. is meaningful and somehow will strike a chord in u one or 2 while listening coz her songs are penned by herself about her life. not those normal love ballads that we all hear so often nowadays. which all seemed so cliche and commercialised :) this is one of the songs i like. everything in His time. :)
the 4th day of starting afresh once again. this new year has so far been so good. other than my wrist is in bandage.. had sprained my wrist last week while helping my dad carried his heavy stuff when i just recovered from my then-sprained wrist. ha.
i spent my 1st day of the year in a good and wonderful way after spending time with myself on new year's eve. have wanted to go to my fren's hse for countdown but later on didnt feel like going and feeling like spending my time with myself and the Lord Himself. i din end last yr with a high note and nor an encouraging note either. but God is good! His mercies are new every morning. i knew He was there with me that nite. and i felt a sense of hope right after 12mn. haa.. yes, a new start, a new beginning for this year.
im concentrating on a few things that im suppose to do for this new year. 1. my studies! - half a yr more to go , a so-call last hurdle. pls passed it well and good that my parents and God will be proud of me. 2. my life after my studies - im concentrating more on my studies 1st before i think more abt it though i have aredi given it some thoughts. secular vs full-time Christian organisations?business-related jobs vs non-business related jobs? i nd to pray abt it. 3. of coz, my spiritual life with God - have to improve. have to move on. and press on. feel that im in a state of mediocre everytime i think abt it. im NOT satisfied at all!
toking abt this, i had a dream on the 1st day of the new year. i remembered in that dream someone was healed. the man's leg was straightened. and i remembered i was very surprised and i couldnt believe my eyes! and i then felt that i was thinking logically y should i be surprise? God does heal and He is the miracle working God! with that, i either drift into another dream or i woke up. i forgot. but i believed that God is speaking to me about it coz i dun hv a strong faith for healing. and i hope to get a breakthru in this this year, especially when the Lord has spoken! yes, the Lord God does heal! :)
4. naturally - i would like to start saving and clear all my debts :P this year! and keep a healthy lifestyle. ha..
ok, back to my 2nd day of my new year. i went out in the morning to have dim sum buffet with my parents. wah.. as usual eat until so full that i didnt have anything for the rest fo the days other than some drinks. after which, i went to warren country club for ktv and then some bowling. yar.. my wrist wasnt feeling well and i went bowling. serve me right that my wrist is painful! at nite, i went to church to hear the missions report from the team who has just came back from country C. ha. something happened on my way to church, thats y i was late. but i am too lazy to say here. heh. report was good. but i was a bit blur here and there coz too places they have went this time round. but i was glad to hear of the well-being of the ppl i have met the last time i went. :)
Through the LORD's mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. Lam 3:22,23