I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
somehow this blog has become a place for me to just talk it out. it was not meant to be when i 1st started it..at least not for this purpose. haha.. but somehow along the way, it just became... mayb thats y is my blog. and i named it the way it was named - the journeyandthewalk. my walk in this world. my walk with God Almighty. and the journey in this life. but i guess somehow it became more of about my world than my God Almighty. but, but, but, it cant nv negate that my world includes Him and whenever i talked about my world, He is definitely included cos He is the One who holds me in His hand and navigate my way thru this world of confusion and mess... hmm.. did i just see some fog in front of me??? sometimes i think i dun see Him, and i dun see His hand in certian things but surely, somehow, He must be. He busies Himself with every step of my way, isnt it?
anyway, time for some update. not sure if i have written prior to this entry... but i have left my previous workplace n started on a new place abt 3 mths ago. am i happy? i think so. wasnt too bad, but somehow i came to ask myself, y was i there? a part of me accepted this position with gladness and a part of me with doubt. surely, i thought to myself, i could not refuse a full time position, cant i? serving the Lord has always been part of wat i want to do, yet... yet, i am not sure if this is the way I want to serve Him. i have brought a lot of stuff with me from my previous workplace. i do not want to. I hope this 2 years here will be a place whr i began to find myself back and understand wat i really wanted.
busy. does being bz give me the time to reflect though? my current workplace has too much for me that i can handle. too much work and too little time. and well, too little money as well. not that i complain but i got to be practical. it has nv been me to complain when it is I who agree to the wat was stated. mayb, only, i have overestimated myself. too dreamy, not practical..haha.. that is part of my make-up perhaps. when i awoke from my dreamy state, alas! i realised, this world is real and the money part is real too. but well, God has always been there for me. though not paid well, im nt really in lack in anyway. and His grace is always there. but only when i asked for it. haa.. mayb that is His way of seeking my attention. and well, let me realise i shldnt rely on myself too much and that much. i have always strive to solve my own problems and not trouble others. mayb it was the way i was brought up. but i realised, i brought this mentality right into my relationship with God. dun nd to bother Him with such small matters, i thought to myself almost unconsciously everytime something happened. not that big, so dun hv to 'trouble' Him. actually, wat is small to Him? He really would like us to call upon Him. is not even difficult at all. wat is that TROUBLE? ya ya..have to remind myself to keep asking the Lord for grace, for help and for healing. wat is difficult for Him?? :)
today, went to the sinsei the 4th time within 2months? 2 difft ones. hand still nt recovered. sighz. irritating cos it reali brought me some inconvenience in my daily lives. pray i got to.
oh, studies have started too. i like it though im nt too sure i can handle. it really is alot more than i expected. ok, got to sign off. my hand is objecting... the pain comes :(