I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
well, realised that my previous entry's not reflected here. rather disappointed. but is ok. mayb is the will of God. will rewrite it later.
i came to realise how shallow i was in God. haha. that was an indescribable feeling of Bro Art's preaching. direct. convicting. stark reality. that reality that caused me to feel that i have been playing church along. c'mon! is time to get serious! wake up!! as i looked back, i realised all the things that i have known, all the spiritual truths... they are all shallow.haha. the depths of shallowness. do i reali understand or noe wat i thought i have known before?
Lord Jesus, indeed You are ruining all of us.haha. You are an exemplary of the perfect mockery of mankind. watever You do is an utter opposite of wat human mankind thought is good. wat is "good"? no man is ever good, and can never be good. Oh Lord Jesus, You caused us to be stark-naked before the world, just like You had. the things that mankind has ever want to hide. You want to expose. all the dark things. all the hidden things. indeed You said that nothing hidden will not be revealed. in me. Oh Lord, cause me to surrender everything to You. You are the only One that matters, not me. im nothing. hear my cry, Oh Lord!
let me die that You can truely live in me. and find life, that true life. What is life? " And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent." John 17:3
come to think of it. i realised God indeed has been preparing me for this time. it has been some time that i have yearned that the life of Christ will so flow out of me. and it is only now that i realised, the only thing and only possible way is that i die, so that the life of Christ may flow out of me.
i noe it is only too difficult that i stopped to exist coz i want to exist. it will only by the grace of God that i will be able to stop to exist. let me go to that point that it is no longer i who live, but Christ who lives in me. deep calls unto deep.