I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
just came back from the very 1st hostelite cell today. was quite glad to c ppl whom i have seen b4 come, and those i hvnt seen b4 too. :) the mtg went well, and i was glad that the ppl were taking down notes on their own accord. wow.. i was so encouraged by them. reali pray that they will indeed come to noe the Lord intimately in their lives. :D
today b4 the cell, i went to fetch my sis at expo to c doc, went the wrong way again.. i always miss the road whenever is a new route i take. anyway, manage to find the place in the end. my sis was sick. recently she has been spending a lot of money on doctors..oh..hate that..coz visiting doc reali have to spend a lot of money..especially dentists! oh yar..back to that, my sis was having a pain at her lower back a few wks ago, then ydae she had very bad cramps, today she had a spinning headache. hv to pray for her health.:)
oh yar, tmr or rather today, im going church camp! hvnt pack..going to pack now..and of coz settle some things b4 i go off..like my father's accounts b4 i go... sianz actuali.. ok..update when i come back..
just came back from jiayong's wedding. it was a very sweet and simple wedding. just Like the 2 of them. even Pst Yang said that this is a 5 kleenex tissue wedding..ha.. wow, they have been together near 9 years! :) how v sweet!
anyway, i went early to transfer the montage file to the church pc coz the 2 dvds burned for them were jerky. duno y, mayb is coz the dvd burner is a 2.0 usb while my comp is only 1.1, so there's an incompatibility. either that, the burner's lousy..:P (i dun like BenQ btw.. i dun have v gd impression on the brand.. ha.. using mktg terms, i am actuali giving the word of mouth, but here, im telling to more than 5 to 11 ppl :P) . was a bit worried when initially the windows media player came out to be blank on the church screen during preparation time, and the sound and light ppl were trying to resolve. even till ard 1.20pm(wedding is at 1.30pm, but as all weddings, started late as usual coz ppl are usuali NOT punctual!) they still cldnt find a solution as to y the windows media player is not showing anything! they even thought of resorting to use a laptop, but thank God, eventually, everything went well. i hv no idea wat they did, but the things can be seen on screen.. phew.. God reali makes things good in His time. :) im realli amazed and pei fu the sound and light crew ppl, especially zhiping... got so many things to juggle..from sound to light, ppl asking him this and that.. i think if u are a v serious person, u will be very stress! and also the helpers for the wedding. they are all able to transform the church in such a short time! and also transformed themselves! i reali c the faithfulness and the serving heart in all the cornerstonians! :) im also amazed at deacon timothy.. he can translate in cantonese!! so he is fluent in english, mandarin and cantonese!!!! *kow tow*( no, cant do that...can only bow down to my God, but u all noe wat i meant lah.. ha...)
im glad ppl have good comments on the montage. frankly speaking, initially when i started doing it, i thought of my skills, in the sense to glorify myself..haha..yes,that self-centredness that keeps creeping up and bugging moi! but after the tertiary camp and stuff, it reali keeps me focus that i simply cant accomplish anything with His grace and without Him. and i started committing even this project into His hands and has in mind to bring glory to the couple to reflect the Lord in their lives, as they bring glory to the Lord. i noe this is the heart of the couples when i asking them abt their wedding. :)
am very tired coz i slept barely for 2 hrs ydae. reason being i was trying to convert the .avi file to a.mpeg. though i manage to convert it in the end, (but without sound), i realised i hv no vcd burner.. and i try all my ways to get a demop nero burner! but i dun noe y but each of them after i downloaded said that the demo has expired! *duh* actuali i have a orginal nero cd, but try as i might, i cldnt find it!
at 4am, i finally succumbed and decide that i shld rtn to my bed, afterall, i tried my best and i have to wake up at 6.30 the nx morning...no..i mean this morning... sigh.. realised my computer cant make it liao.. im going to reformat it.. before i go for my trip to melaka.. or shld i do after that? well, lets c abt it bah...
im thinking of keeping myself away from the comp..it has always been a weakness of mine... and i noe it... i tried successfully keeping away from it for 2 weeks b4, then i will just used it... and the time will just passed without me noeing. well, if u ask me how do i manage to spend so much time in front this thing? i have no idea! time just flies sitting in front of it! :(
but after i came back from the tertiary camp, i have been sitting in front of the comp coz of the montage i promised to do for them. thank God, mayb i shldnt be in the multimedia ministry after all coz there is always this occupational-designer-thing that will want the design or watever to be perfect and that eats up ur time! i shld come back to my primary ministry - that is minister unto the Lord. i reali in my mind have so much thought of going to this ministry, to that ministry, but seriously, when i thought abt them, i realised that if my life is not going to get any better when i served in those ministry, y bother? coz truely, the most impt ministry is still our ministry to our Lord and King. i dun wanna be known as a servant, but i want to be known as a friend!
i just got to noe that i wun be in the hostelites cell core. was disappointed in a way, but that is a good news to me really, when i thought abt it. coz i noe i wun be able to manage. im simply not up to the task. i m simply not ready. i will going to be a new multiplied cell soon. i think i nd to focus. i realli will peng san if i continue to bz myself with so much things. even the Lord said to martha that she is troubled with too many things. mary has chosen the good part and it will not be taken away from her. and well, that is, to just sit at His feet. i realised i reali reali have not sat at His feet, except in coporate times coz i have been bz with so so much things. the Guitar Club, the Tertiary camp, the montage... too much things on my platter. have to focus on the essential thing!
Let us rtn unto the Lord. :)
yes, im going to prepare myself for the upcoming churchcamp in melaka!
I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, Do not stir up nor awaken love until it pleases. SOS 8:4 hate as i wld like to admit... this thing reali affects me.. well, if u can understd wat i mean, the above quote means, which i do not wan to make it v obvious... the Lord will not stir up nor awaken love till He pleases... i have said to lift this up into His hand for a year... and i shall not taek it back. :)
think i hvnt been in a way properly blogged for some time. reason being i was very busy. doing a montage for my frens who are getting married. but of coz, somehow, i dun reali feel like blogging. a good thing mayb. :) ha.. and just like wat i said... dun reali feel like blogging, yet somehow think that mayb i say something here.
today the Tertiary Ministry met for prayer. to pray for the hostelites who have given their lives to the Lord and for those who have not...(hm...which means include all hostelites..ha..) anyway, karen was mentioning that the church will be planting a cell there to build up the hostelites there. it is a good news. v good in fact. i was thinking we do not just want to ask them receive the Lord then just leave them alone. then they will be like babes who will never grow up, and will in fact just die away. although it is the Lord who caused the increase, we must do our part to plant and give water. the Lord will be faithful to see thru all this. amen! im indeed v excited and anticipating of wat the Lord will be doing from this.
and how does it concern me? well, i may be deployed to be in that cell, which is a good thing again. but somehow, i felt smthing in me rising up even as i have this thought. which is not a good thing at all. wat is rising up? pride. self glorying. i noe, if i am chosen to help build the cell there, it is not that im good or even spiritual or even reali mature, but it is the Lord who is willing to use me as His servant. i have to bring this to the cross and die to myself. let no flesh glory in His sight! i noe i am many times prone to fall into this. it has always been a weakness of mine. and that is why the Lord has never failed to address this in my life. which of coz i am grateful.
Lord, help me to die to myself. to pick up that cross and see things as you are. to have a pure heart so that i may see You.
i got reminded of wat a fren said during a prayer mtg. we are to pick up that cross. but if we are unwilling, that cross will become a stumbling block. how true is that, i thought! the cross was a sign for us to be near to Him, but yet if we are unwilling to pick up that cross, it will only become a stumbling block. let us not be found a ppl who find that picking up the cross is a hindrance and chore. but that each step of the way, is a step of finding that eternity.
a stone can either be seen as one who stumbles u or seen as a stepping stone.