I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
May the road rise to meet you, May the wind be always at your back, May the sun shine warm upon your face And the rain fall soft upon your fields And until we meet again, May God hold you in the palm of His hand. Irish Blessing
stumbled upon this, and i duno y but i felt so heartwarming reading it. :) felt bliss...
well, i have absolutely no idea why my blogger account is in chinese when i log into net with my IE ( i usuali used my firefox, but it hung just coz i attempted to uplaod 2 photos! im not sure wats wrong, but surely is my comp).
anyway, thats digressing. not wat i wanted to say. i just want to, before i keep archiving my complaints and unhappy happenings into my "memory bank", i thot i shld learn to count my blessings! yes.. i think this is wat i lack many times. God has always been good to me! He is good! :) think i have always been looking at the cynical side of life. though it does not really reflects the outlook of my life, but somehow, when it comes to penning down thoughts, all those not-so-happy-ones are those that i usuali write down. so, am i an optimistic one or not? think all of us are schizophrenic in some ways.. haha..
anyway, i just want to give all the thanks and honour to my Father in heaven for my results! yes, i forgot to post abt it. ha. i got my results abt 2 weeks ago, and i cleared everything including the maths that i have been flunking for the past 2 years!! hallelujah! i got a 2nd lower overall for my honours and im real happy abt it coz that is what im aiming for. y only aim for 2nd lower? coz with my results for my 1st and 2nd year, i knew thats no way for anything higher, so 2nd lower is good enuf for me, afterall, i only did put in effort for my last year and alas, only for the last 3 or 4 mths before my exams. i knew the results is from God, is not my own. though i wld like to say i did put in effort and so claimed the credit, but so did my frens, and they even more so! my effort quotient is not even half of theirs. im someone who is known to skip class and not hand in assignments. in fact, there are 2 units this yr which i only attended half of wat is required. so, i noe i really dun deserve it.
since young i have been blessed with relatively good results... without hardly any effort of mine. even my elder sis always comes complaining to me that she had to study so hard and yet i always got better results than hers. and i always purposely picked subjects that are known to be difficult to pass.. and i always managed to pass them! (not with fantastic results of coz, coz i dun really study...haha).. exceptions will be MATHEMATICS!! well, this does not always happened though, the 1st blow that came to me was my Os... but well, thats for another time... but i believe God always has a plan and purpose for everything. :)
yar, im not the mugging type..and never will be.. in fact, i told my frens that the grace for studying is finished. im done with studying. haha. but interestingly enuff, i love reading! nothing is better than a good book. haha. anyway, im digressing again.
well, wats the whole point of my whole entry? learn to count my blessings. heh
whoa..looking at my last entry, i realised i hvnt been blogging for 1 mth! ha..knew i was long, but i din noe that long. anyway, frm that time since now, i have started wkg at CfaN - Christ for all Nations. after some considerations, i have decided to join them. and since then, i hvnt been blogging abt it nor toked abt it. reasons being..hm..i hv no idea wat to write or rather shld i? for politically correct reasons i guess.
so hm.. this blog somehow is a rather ironic thing. on one hand, i wld gladly like ppl to read abt my life and mayb a little peek into my inner feelings, yet on the other hand, i wldnt really want to. so i guess, sometimes, i hope ppl wun actuali asked me things i wrote in my blog face to face. ha.. y? i guess is just a self protectivemechanism.
basicalli, this is my 3rd week at CfaN. job was a bit boring and mundane. well, wat cld i expect frm an admin job anyway. and i am just so NOT admin. sighz.. it reminds me of wat sis Ruby was saying to me that day when she found out that i will be wkg at CfaN. she said she dun think i will be someone who likes admin coz she finds that im someone who is creative and like changes and challenges, but, if is long term, and i dun reali like it, i will mould my chtr. i thought that was v true and i kept this word within me. i knew it will mould my chtr. true enuf, i felt that i was humbled and moulded in the plc even for just 3 weeks. still adjusting, still getting used to it. but, honestly speaking, i like a mundane admin job when im in the mood of not thinking and dun feel like thinking.
ha. i was thinking today, mayb all graduates are ambitious when they 1st started work and then to find reality that will hit them hard. coz i was toking to this fren of mine who also graduated and found a job. but he is quite unhappy as he feels that he is juat an overpaid clerk. well, i guess for the 1st 6 mths, things are usually boring, but will definitely get better. BUT, im really treating my job not just as a job but a ministry as well and so that means my attitude towards it is definitely different if im were to hold a secular job. ok, ok, i admit that my attitude( i mean when i was in sch) hadnt really been commendable. but i hv to say i make sure i do my tasks well if it involves others coz i definitely dun wan ppl to get into trouble just coz of my irresponsibility and attitude. but, if it just concerns me, example, like my school results, hm.. thats just another matter. i remembered my sis saying that im someone who will do things well if i really want to do it well and if im interested in it, when i asked her last mth (i think) wat kind of person does she think i m. y did i ask that qn? coz i felt that a lot of ppl think that im a rather laidback and heck-care kind of person, but i just want to say..NOT REALLY? i do care. but maybe i juz dun express it out. it has been in me since i was young. again, a self protective mechanism. though im a changed man coz of Christ, sometimes it gets back to me again! still wkg on it. looking non-chalant and laidback is my forte! ahhaa...
anyway, before i end. i really dun like the feeling of doing nothing at work! i like challenges! coz i dun feel right. and coz i dun feel that thats a plc that i shld be doing nothing. ha... (but to clarify, i got things to do at work lah, just that, i like hvg many things to do... ooh..that adrenaline..haha.. but then, im not a workaholic, or i think so..haha...)
ya..im still looking to expand my dad's bizness, mayb bring it online. but then, i shall settle down at my current work before looking at other things. hv more research to do!