I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
since writing the entry yesterday, i cant help it but wanting to whine about it... about my situation... about so many ppl stopping me. could it be God who is doing all the divine intervention that is speaking to me so loudly ' DONT DO IT?" or could it be obstacles God has deliberately placed in between so that i will not give up? well, i guess this can only be answered if i know the will of the Lord. cos if it is His will for me to do it, it will be the latter, if not, the former...
honestly speaking, even if i not going to do it, i wldnt want to stay in the place where i am wkg now. ask me why? various reasons.. some inconvenient to say... but my boss will not want to c me go. thats her answer to me. i understand.. at the perspective of an employer.
thoughts of wanting to study or not ran and rang thru my mind last nite as i lay my head to sleep. half asleep and sleeping consciously... i duno wat. just a bad nite. i remembered as i spoke to the Lord about it. i have no way to hear cos voice of ambition is perhaps louder most of the time, and i have to admit that there is nothing in the bible that could back me up in my reading of psychology. the only thing i can have is a real conviction from the Lord.
and i will follow.
I will stand my watch And set myself on the rampart, And watch to see what He will say to me, And what I will answer when I am corrected. Then the LORD answered me and said:
“ Write the vision And make it plain on tablets, That he may run who reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry. "
