I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
"No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please him who enlisted him as a soldier."
this verse has been ringing in my mind since vanguard yesterday.
i have to admit that i have allow myself to be entangled in the affairs of the world and even started to enjoy the things of the world. the things which i know in the past has no grip or even appeal to me. i guess they are shown to me by the Lord about the condition of my heart. some things that i thought will never happened to me, one by one, they happened. haha.. i guess this is wat they say "never say never"...
anyway, i am tired of me being where i am yet no strength or maybe no heart or maybe no zeal to get out of where i am. not sure if this is call the comfort zone. but one thing i can say, i dun think im really comfortable in where i am cos once every too often, the Lord or my leaders will come and "knock" my head to wake me up again. each time wanting to move forward, each time i got up and then sit back again. tired... sometimes, this tiredness is getting a hold of me and wondered if it is easier if i just sit down completely. but nevertheless, i know this is definitely not wat the Lord has for me. neither do i want to go on this life without fulfilling the purpose He has for me - the reason i was created for. so, move forward will i or not?? i think i need help.
well, and the Lord has been ever so good to me to give me an opportunity after another. yet, each time i choose to forgo it due to fear. im not sure when the Lord will stop giving me the chance. i fear whenever i think of that. each time saying to Him, Lord i will not do that again. i will definitely do it next time. but when next time comes, i shunned again. frustrated with the state that i am in, i do not really know what to do.
