I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
well, i realised my most helpful gadget i have now is my handphone cos i will be able to write and note down watever i wan to rem or some insights on it. i was going thru them just now and i thought maybe i shld also write down on this blog too cos i might sell/ change my handphone one day. on another note, i have also transferred my 2 other entries from my other blog. but they are under "drafts" meaning they r not to be posted for public's eyes...haha.. maybe one day i will unveil them. meanwhile... hmm... anyway, here are the thoughts that i have..some dated, some undated...
on my birthday last year - 2nd july 08
The Lord was saying that i have clothe myself with something else to protect myself and hide myself in it. i will not allow myself to be hurt ot let anyone into my heart. Thus, i have not entirely let Him into my heart either. The fear of sin, the fear of rejection. From God, from men.
post note: i dun reali understd the last part...haha... wat was i trying to say? mayb sometimes i purposely wrote that so that i wun rem in the future?
on 4th july 2007 at 9.23am
Putting on Christ, not just taking off mortality but further clothe so that mortality will be swallowed up by life. 2 Cor 5:4 - therefore study abt putting on Christ.
The Lord dares to do things that nobody dares to do in His time cos He hears His father and He noes that He is the Son of God. Likewise, we must know that we are the sons and daughters of God to do things that God ask us to do without fear. Though we may not fully understd wat the father wants sometimes or most of the time, we merely carry out instructions cos thats wat we heard. and noeing that He cares, have no fear. No orphan spirit in us cos He has not left us alone but gives us the Hoy Spirit as a guarantee - that He is our Father! post note: this thought actually came to me when i think of Sarah Yang who when she prayed, says, "Dad..". well, i thought thats pretty rude or informal to call God lidat but then something in me rang, i knew it was a religious spirit saying that. and i thought well, in Jesus' time, nobody dares to call God "Father" cos is rude. the pharisees were offended cos they think who is Jesus to call God His Father? who do He think He is? well, thats a religious spirit... and then the other thought that Jesus dares to do things ppl at His time dun cos He noes who He is - His identity and He noes who His Father is.
not dated but apparently on a bus back home. remember i was in a period of down. i always write this kind of things when im down. it was supposed to be a song but it turned out likewise i think.
Sitting on the bus, looking out of the window, Thinking of wat u said to me, wondered if i really heard or understood Wondered where I have been all these while. Issit me or issit You? Am I walking forward on my journey or am i recounting back on my steps? Have I pleased You so far to do all Your delights that I want to all my life? Pouring out my life Oh, but my spirit's willing, flesh is weak They all say when there's a will, there;s a way But You said, " Is not He who runs, not he who wills it You who shows mercy" Yes. That's grace That's mercy That I thought I have tasted. has it been there? I know You are the one who can make it possible with my 5 loaves and 2 fishes something all i can give but You dun seemed to mind at all You said to me Give me all u have Give me all u hold on so dear I will bring u to place further than u think u can I will do for u wat u never thought possible with that little faith i have, i treaded on with all the strength i left, i move on Knowing this time, It is me on my own strength nor only me walking on my own But You with me.
another undated one. but i think similar almost the same period of down-ness and same week when i wrote this.
In the middle of the nite A tinge of sadness came over me I turned on my lappie and wondered y i have turned to the computer for solace instead of You. Oh why?
undated. a pondering of Diligence vs rest of God
wat is that rest of God? wat is not using our own strength? Denying ourselves, pick up the cross and follow HIm Unless a wheat falls to the ground and die, it remains alone...
undated.
Mary vs Martha mentality Worship Him. Know His ways, His face, not just His hands Lord, teach me of You. Not just ask wat You want me to do, But Lord I want to know You
