LEGACY - nicole nordeman
I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
is near 1am now. i still cant get to sleep coz of the heavy dinner i had with my family at amk hub. i was wondering whether this trip out with them is worth it. honestly, i reali do not enjoy gg out with them anymore, not that i did before but i honestly cherished my family members and want to show my care and concern for them as much as possible and hopefully they do as well. but time and again wat i get is only hurts and that take-for-granted attitude. i was thinking, issit reali worth it? issit reali worth it for me to look at them and feel the hurt in me. money money money is all they care. from at home and onto the car and all the way. all they tok abt is money. do they reali care? im tired of all this. wat have this world come to? and i actuali do feel a bit of resentment in the car as i heard them rattled on and on, and in my heart, i thought i was in the wrong place. i shld have gone to church for the todd bentley's mtg instead.
im tired. tired of being taken advantage. even by my own family. tired. tired of taking care of the hse. tired. tired that i cant try to tok sense into my parents. my sisters. y do i nd to take charge? i reali nd a breather. y do u think i was always online when i was at home? and i actuali feel stressed when they are at home? honestly, i rather much wan to stay alone in my own privy plc. yes. a small room will suffice for me. yes. staying out is so much better for me than to come home.
last wk, i was toking to this sister-in-Christ of mine and i told her that im reali tired. tired of walking backwards. tired of being taken advantage. she encouraged me that i wasnt walking backwards, just on a different track. i wondered. issit true? and y afraid of beign taken advantage of? the Lord will take care of us. wun he? yes. i believe He will. but i noe the Lord will let us be take advantage of. just like he was. but the diff will be... my response and my attitude. maybe one day. one day, i wun feel anything even if im taken advantage of...
so how? hw am i gg to face them? hw am i gg to lead them to christ? honestly speaking, im tired of reaching out to them and yet also afraid that they may not noe the Lord b4 they go.i noe the Lord is good and He will be save. but when?
im reali... tired...
