I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
It has been some time since i blogged..hm.. so im gg to run thru wat i have did since the last time...also recounting for myself...
my honeymoon period in ofc ended when my boss comes back from the states.. and right after a mtg, i realised i suddenly have more than 5 things i need to do. haha... thank God i have an assistant to help me with another part which is another 2 or 3 things. im hoping that i will nt have a multimedia to do...but... c how it goes lah. oh, but my assistant is going bonkers coz my boss doesnt reali like her style and the things she designed though i thot it was not bad.. too bad.. she has to adhere to de boss lah... so she v pek cek... and when she is lidat, im reali afraid coz when we have to OT till the next mrng the other time, coz of the buggy software and the lousy computer, she nearly went crazy. And last saturday when my boss rejected her work again... actuali nt agn, but more of, there's theme my boss wans us to follow so have to redesign ( and i already told them before hand that they shld give me a theme or i will have to redo it when theres one, so after many times they insisting that there is NO theme, i get on with it... BUT see lah, after mtg, there IS a theme after all.. these ppl... haiz... just cldnt understd wat we need... design design... design wat??!! no details, no theme, do wat? and that someone who keep telling me wat i shld do, wat i shld use, yada yada yada... i was wanting to ask him 'You designer or i designer?' but i din lah... meekness...) anyway, i shall not bother abt that... *stop complaining* i noe is how God is wkg in my life... and i got to rejoice for that... :)
anyway, enuf abt work. i found my fren on friendster! or rather, she found me! haha...excited abt that and i was justed thinking if i wld meet her agn on that day as i scrolled thru my contact list. come to think of it, it shld nt be a coincidence... maybe.. hm...
anyway, we met up last week and have a nice tok. nt realli reminscencing but more of getting on in life and that is so great! coz many times when mtg up with new friends, there might be the worry that 2 of us may have become strangers and feel awkawrad in front of one another. but thankfully, most of my old frens are still the same whenever we mt up, even though, sometimes only like once in a yr or 2 yrs... amazing...
anyway, her appearance made me think of composing songs again. why? coz my fren now composes songs as her interest. ydae as i was at her vlog, i decided to look for the songs that i have composed a few yrs back, and i surprised. pleasantly surprised. yet somehow rather sad too. surprised that i wasnt too bad at the songs though i thot they werent gd when i wrote at that time. sad as i was wondering wat happened to me nowadays? i no longer write songs and i dun even hv inspiration to sing songs anymore. in fact, i thot my singing wasnt as gd as i was b4.. sighz... i wondered wat happened. or was it just my thoughts and being emo. y did i always think that my oast seemed to be better than the present? isnt my life suppose to better and better? or issit like wat the bible says old man dying each day? anyway, think i will reali nd to get back my interest for music... and photography..
last thing, i have been bowling for the past 2 weeks... not too bad as i got kakis to play with. my highest has been 160+ for the last 2 weeks. im not v happy nor sad with it. but i noe i can do better. anyway, is all for fun and for challenging myself. still contemplating if i shld go bowling tmr... though i thot mayb i will, yet i thot maybe not... sighz..duno lah... there is something i wanna say too but thot maybe i will not...haha...
oh God, i jus wan to lift up my life into Your hands as i reali somehow come to understand that when im in Your will, everything will be fine and good. Why do i keep fretting and worrying if im in Your good hands. Oh Lord, teach me to wait upon u, and follow wat You say that i will be in Your will. You say " Seek You and Your Kingdom first and all these things will be added unto You".. and i believe it. in fact, it has always been the verse im living and standing upon. Thank You Lord. i noe You will not disappoint me and i hope i will be a cause that brings a smile to Your face. :)
