I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
hm.. im thinking of blogging today... and wat shld i blog on? btw, the blogger took so long to log me in, many times whenever i think of things to blog, i forgot while waiting for it to log me in...haha...
dreams. yes. let me tok to u abt dreams. again? no lah..this time is abt literal dreams. dreams that u and me have everyday... or mayb u dream but dun rem..haha...like me most of the time...
anyway, wat i wanna say is that, about 2 or 3 days ago, i dreamed a dream... i dreamt that i was driving a car and i had to go to this place..err..that im nt v sure of... but anyway, i went on to the expressway and i kept driving... and then, i realised i lost my way... so i got out of the car, and i saw that i was at a place that looked like a bus interchange coz it had a lot of buses... so, i walked around and see if i could find the way out, or mayb find the place that i was looking for. and i rem i walked down a staircase and i saw people that looked strange.. black people, people that dun look local.. and as i looked at them, they looked back at me... it was then i so realised im definitely at the wrong place! oh my, did i get out of spore?? hw cld it be since i was only travelling on the expressway? i thought to myself. then i quickly went back to my car and i looked at the street directory and to my horrors! i saw that i was reali out of spore! i was at this place that was alienated from the main island. i rem it was a very deserted circle on its own on the street directory! i forgot wat happened next..but i think i was trying to get a bus to get out of that scary unknown place...
wat is the point of this entry? well, 1stly, i just want to say that though it sounds strange or even funny, it is v scary to me.. i kept wondering if it is a warning from God to me. i rem in the dream that when i was in the car driving, i was thinking to myself if i shld take a look at the street directory since i was nt sure of the route and i always get lost (and so am i in reality), but i told myself, nvm lah... just c how it goes and find solution when im lost lor (and i am also lidat in reality)...
the reason why i would think that if the dream is a warning from God is that it has been quite a number of times that i dreamt that i was driving a car... and all those times, the outcome of the dreams were negative. and those who interpret dreams will know that a vehicle represents ministry. . many times in the dreams, the car crashed; it went out of control or i lost my way. so, as the dreams kept coming over the past 1 or 2 years, i reali started to question if they are warnings frm God to me. i am wondering if they are warnings to me that the ministry that i am in or im going to be in, are going to have those outcome. coz many times in the dreams, the negative outcomes were mainly due to my negligence, impluse and non-chalant attitude... y wld i suddenly dwell on the dreams? im not sure. actuali, these dreams, though i remembered them, i would just cast them aside most of the time, mayb to the back of my mind. but somehow, after this last dream, i reali dun wan to cast them aside anymore. i thot mayb i shld reali give a serious thought about them. knowing my chtr, after blogging here, i may jolly well think that i have did something about it...hurhur, but... i think i realli shld share this with some ppl and hear wat they have to say... and at the same time, ask God if they are realli from Him... coz it will be reali scary if the dreams do come to pass...
oh God, tell me wat to do...
p.s. im quite sianz of the look of this blog liao... think i will change a blog skin soon... hm.. and that is if im not lazy to... haha
