I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
today i went to volunteer... distributing bread to the old folks at some hdb flats. it was organised by a non profit organisation which was a ministry of fairfield methodist church. quite an interesting experience and i was amazed at hanwen when he shared the gospel to 2 old ladies. though they said the salvation prayer at the end of it but both of them were very open and were considering abt it. wat he said made a lot of sense to me and also certain declaration he said of God. He said when u believe in God, u will have joy, peace and got no problems. u can cast the devils... all ur illness will leave u, etc and of coz u will go to heaven. when he said all these, i of coz will agree in my head, but i think other than i have enuf faith to say "u will go to heaven", the rest i do not dare to say at all, if that was me..i think. i was thinking abt them when he said that, i was thinking to myself, wat issit that made me dare nt to say that after believing in Christ, u will be free of trouble, u will peace and joy. all illnesses will leave u, and u can cast off devils? issit that i have nt enuf faith? or issit the fear that i am nt preaching the complete gospel if i preached that? or even the fear of painting such a rosy picture of the Christianity faith? coz the Christian life is definitely "no problems" but just that when theres problems, He will be with me. i will indeed have joy and peace in me when i faced those problems, but can i say in such confidence that i ALWAYS have that peace and joy in me when im in trouble? and i definitely do nt dare to say that illnesses will leave u, and u will recover when u ask God to heal u coz i reali do nt have faith in that aspect. many times i wondered. many times i pondered. i have heard many testimonies. i have read in the bible. but i just cldnt help but wonder y i have nt seen it before in my own life? i believe that God can heal. but He can choose not to. im always afraid for the fact that if one day, i told someone that God can heal and he is nt heal, hw will it be? will that person be bitter? will that person turn and point a finger at me and said that "it is all a lie?" i have no idea why i would think of all these? mayb is coz of the difft msgs that i have heard over the years, the teachings i have heard over the years that there are always trials and tribulations in the world... but of coz, Jesus said that we are to be of good cheer coz He has overcome the world... again, in the head, but nt in my heart.. to me, Christian life is definitely never a bed of roses, coz even if it is, there are always the thorns. so wat exactly is my problem? mayb i have been seeing God as too small a God. and i have always been like Joshua whos afraid... and thats y God has to say to him... do not be afraid, do nt be dismayed.. but be of good courage...
