I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
maybe i care too much. maybe im just opinionated. but i have never seen myself as judgemental. at least i have never thought so. maybe i just din c that myself. and thats y i can never tok to someone i care. without emotions. without leaving my tears behind. and even being angry with that someone: y dun noe how to think? maybe God reali create me to have an analytical mind to think things way ahead. to think things in the big picture. to see far before i can see the small picture. and that is maybe y i never knew how to c things in details. to deal with things in details. like most ppl who see things in details, in small pic. they cant get out of whr they are in. nitpicked things which i never see as problems. but coz of this, i realise i cant seemed to be able to help them. coz i duno how to let them c in my way. maybe like my fren who said to me today," u nd to help the person to break things into small parts so that the person can swallow." how? i was thinking. coz i can c things so well that to me is almost natural. maybe like wat my fren told me ydae," the way u analyse things is reali far ahead." i have never notice that for myself. to me is almost natural. maybe im reali practical and pragmatic and emotional or sensual like i thot i am. i seemed to be like praising myself. ha. but im reali not. im not feeling gd rite now. i wonder if u understand wat im feeling now. coz i cldnt even pinpoint myself. some kind of sad, some kind of sour. mayb i reali care too much. especially with those i care a lot.
