RETREAT

i was on a retreat for the past few days. was not bad i thought for the 1st day. but of coz, it cld have been better. im not sure though if they understand where i am coming from. afterall, it is not one retreat that can change ppl. but reali, the 1st day sharing was good as we tok more and noe abt one another's lives more than just noeing u rather superficially. i think rapport comes by working with one another.

the bible studies that i have appointed each to do was more of hoping to let them learn something while they were preparing for it, and maybe pray about it coz that is the way that all of us are suppose to learn. from the studying the Word of God. however, felt that most have not reali prepare much rather than a haphazard study of fulfilling the duty coz they are suppose to share. but hope that they do really have learnt something while they prepare for it.

reali have to pray as this year draws near to a close abt this ministry in SIM. cldnt find anyone from my church who can take over. this is the preference, but of coz, it is open to anyone who has a heart to. eliz and i reali hope that this will not in the next year or so will dwindle into just a guitar club, but hoping to at least leave a legacy in the heart of the ppl. yar, to touch a few hearts are good enough for me, but of coz, if there's more it will be much better. God is faithful and gracious. and i learnt much from this experience. the strength and weaknesses and things that i have to change and adapt and learnt while doing all these.


Legacy by Nicole Nordeman

I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all the who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such 'n such...it wouldn't matter much

I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an "Atta boy" or "Atta girl"
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
the temporary trappings of this world

I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love?
Did I point to You enough to make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who blessed Your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy

I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthy list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy

Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well done, good and faithful one".


about my relationship, i think the thing that bothers me most is that is that the person God has for me? i reali dun wan to miss the mark coz after some assessing, i somehow reali think that our ministry and callings are rather difft. though i think i cna go for bizness, it is still in my heart to be in full-time. not full-time church staff or missions maybe, but nevertheless full-time for the Lord. afterall, how can 2 walk togther unless they agree? ok lah, im not going to think about it anymore... haa.. meanwhile, i noe wat i shld do. :)