I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
You could take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all who's who and so-n-so's that used to be the best
At such'n'such ... it wouldn't matter much
I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an 'Atta boy' or 'Atta girl'
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world
I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things?
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace who
blessed your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy
I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthly list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon enough destroy
Not well traveled, not well read, not well-to-do or well bred
Just want to hear instead, "Well Done" good and faithful one...
i think the past few days, in the midst of my v free time..(actuali, not v free, i shld be revising! my exams cmg u noe? :( ).. anyway, i hv been reading a lot of things online... sigh... and i think i hv been reading all the wrong things! tsk tsk..not useful to my spiritual life at all... i noe i will sound very kua zhang to the non-believers, maybe Christians too... BUT..thats the truth! ok, wat hv i been reading?
ydae nite been reading the (pronounce: dee.. yes! DEE) xiaxue blog... haha.. i din even noe she is the no.1 voted blogger in spore! wah! thats quite something for a just-turned 21 ger isnt it? i entertained myself..haha...but im still not sure y she is the no. 1 blogger leh for the few articles i read. i think her old entries were better... mayb coz now she has to add some entertainment element in it huh, no matter wat? some parts seemed a bit fake leh. well, if anyone of u is a xiaxue fan 'blogder' (term coined by her) pls dun cm #hamtum me k?! jus speaking wat i feel.
anyway, wat other things? i actuali was searching something abt crucifixion, then i somehow got to link to the Nanking Massacre, the Japanese Occupation and other things. arghh.. and i shudder at the thought of i have read... not edifying at all. though i hv to say the crucifixion is so scary! and yar, the persecution period of the Christians are even scarier... and i reali dun wan to imagine or think wat will be coming! like i said before.. i think in some other entries.. it will be probably a v v serious and frightening thing that will come! (those 2 adjective is an understatement of how i felt.. pardon me for my lack of vocab.. argh.. english 'deprove' more and more due to my highly effectively singlish! >.<) coz, now alredi so jialat (aiya..cant even think of a english word for it! oh no~ THATS A V BAD SIGN!), anyway, (stop dgressing! maybe i shld trying Sylvia Plath's stream of consciousness... :P oh no, she is a depressed one) Jesus said that there will be more famines, dissaters, wars, but all these are only BEGINNING of sorrows. then how? and he said there will be the GREAT tribulation. so? wat does it mean? He would not haver said is a GREAT tribulation if it is not...
i hv been reading articles in talkingcock.com - a spore satrical website toking abt spore politics and singlish.. some quite funnie, but the more i read, the more distasteful it became. i hv no problem with singlish at all! but aiyo, the singlish they hv sounds so #beng-ish and utter crude! the more i read, the more i cant #tahan.. u mean, u mean, sporeans reali tok lidat!! i dun reali think so. at least, the normal sporeans dun tok lidat, every sentence with a vulgarity or hokkien.. like..sooo crude! although many do add those things into their everyday lives, but not to their extent k? i think many mostly end their sentence or peppered their sentence with "lah", "lor", "hor", etc.. and a bit of malay, chinese, hokkien oor watever into their 'engrish'. and of coz sentence construction and structure not very corright lah(yar, got this from the website - a twist of 'correct'). but not those beng-ish terms! anyway, mayb they relai want to exaggerate singlish in their site since it is supposed to be a satrical site! but not funny leh... i think some things are overdone and thus becomes distasteful.
yar, and somehow, i took a liking to read the columns in the newspapers. hey not the rows and columns lah *lame* the columnists! some of them rather interesting and funnie in their own way. also more of a satrical kind of humour... ha...
well, i reali felt i hv been reading things that are sowing to my flesh! the thought of it..hm..tsk tsk..shld stop myself at reading them. they are "delicious" to the mind and fleshly desires nonetheless... thats y my soul wants to read them...aiyo, cant let them permeate into my spiritman! we reap wat we sowed! u will become wat u read!
let me read u something i read from Paul Caram's commentary of 1 Peter (btw, u realised i actuali read quite a bit, #hor? *wink*)
"Abstain" is a word that involves the will. We may choose to walk the walk of wisdom or we may choose not to and thy be ensnared. If we sow to the Spriit, we will reap life. but if we sow to the flesh, we shall reap corruption. When a person reads the wrong material or looks at pornography, he is sowing to the flesh. Listening to sensual music and being enamoured by evil musicians is sowing to the flesh. Watching endless operas with their continual extrammartial affairs is sowing to the flesh. If you are in the wrong places with the wrong friends - it won't be long before you fall.We must not play with the emotions of others, or with our own emotions. This is sowing to the flesh. (Gal 5:16, 6:7, 8)
Although these are acts of our will, I am not emphasizing the strength of the will. We always need grace (divine enablement) to help us make the right decisions and to help us sow to the Spirit. If we walk in the Spirit, we will not fulfill the lusts of the flesh. We need a life of wroship, a life of prayer, and a life of walking with good people. We must seek to be filled with the Spirit, or we will be filled with something else.
