PARENTS...

tired of listening to my parents... sigh.. of coz, they not toking to me, but to themselves. from some bits and pieces that i've managed to catch..(hey..i not eavesdropping k? they simply too loud lah..) they are toking abt money, abt condos, abt winning toto... wah..fantastic conversation... (can u hear my sarcasm?) hmm..especially my mum was saying, "aiyah, my dad passed away that day was ger's (my younger sis) birthday, shld hv buy 4D ah... my so-and-so bought it and she got 2nd prize leh!" my dad's reply," aiyah, whr got so ez win one?" duh~ i cldnt believe my ears... everything's abt money. and i was thinking... so how abt after u die? the money dun mean anything liao lor... think abt eternity! but anyway, noeing them, they wun want to listen one lah. all they think is that when they die, nobody is going to offer the incense papers or burn joss sticks for them... :( i was like... sigh.. y? y dun u prefer to go heaven than to go hell and want ppl to burn them stuff? if they noe wat hell will be like, they will realised that those things are all fake! when in hell, no chance to use them, they are just commercialised items made by those casket companies! anyway, i always emphasize to them that it does not matter. wat it matters is how i treat them when they r alive! die liao then filial, for wat? act for ppl to c?? bible says we are to honour our parents too!

anyway, hopefuli im not offending anyone here. everybodi has their beliefs but i jus wanna tell u the TRUTH!

look.. if u noe if u believe in Buddhism, Taoism, u will go to hell rite? i mean, most lah... if go heaven, u must be a REAL saint b4 u can get there... but the truth is, nobodi can be a saint! now, i tell u, if u believe in Jesus, u will definitely go to heaven, and nobody believes! becomes sceptical. Buddha says that he is not god. ppl worship him as god. Jesus said He is God, and ppl gets sceptical. y? atrocious rite?? well, i guess is the mentality of human to want to get something out of their OWN effort. afterall, all ppl believe there are no free lunch in this world... but actuali y u noe is free? coz is PAID FOR. but of coz, salvation is free, but it is not cheap! Jesus paid it using His blood!

ok.. i think im deviating from my original intention of blogging...haha. actuali i wanted to tok abt the diff of my dad and mum. they have very diverse chtrs. my dad is a boh-hew, boh-chap fellow. he is that kind when-sky-drops-down, i-used-it-as-a-blanket kind (thats a chinese idiom btw..haha - 天塌下来我当被盖). so a result, the burden now lies on my mum's shoulders.. and she is a super manipulative and dun like to be tok back and argued back kind. domineering i would say. when she gives u somehting to eat, u must eat or she will be angry. that explains my size..>_<...i always got the idea she's trying to make us all fat... haha..ok, i sound evil... but my mum is now undergoing slimming therapy, but she still insists all of us to eat SO MUCH! ok, so like i said the burden lies on my mum's shoulders, so she will be extremely easily agitated. of coz, everybody can c she is trying to control her temper. but sometimes, things happened. when that happened, everybodi will shut up. and she is a wonderful mum other than her temper. y do i write all these? k, they were toking abt money all that just now.. then my mum went to the living room, and she saw a packet of something on the table, so she asked my dad.

"yan dao(how my mum calls my dad..hee..), wat did u buy?"

" poh piang. middle one no chili..."

"aiyo, u buy all these for wat?"
and i can hear munching sound from her mouth.

so my dad got a bit agitated.
"aiyah, i wanna eat one lah."

%&#%$&.. well i can hear their conversation frequenlty peppered with them. i always wonder y they must tok lidat? a habit??

my dear parents...ha...

GALLOWS ROUND MY NECK

chanced upon this magazine while in my sis' room. its title is the BRIEFING, and the theme of that issue is: The Cross Still Stands. well, flipping the next page of the mag, i guessed is by the editor, was the article, "The gallows round my neck". upon reading it, i decided to add it here. it has been a misconception of many ppl, Christian, non-Christian alike as to why they wear a cross on their neck. well, i guess most answers will be, "it looks cool!" and "well, it identifies Christian as a Christian"(but then, many non-Christian wears a cross as an accessory too). hmm... but isnt that suppose to be by our conduct, our Christlikeness that identifies us, that separates us from other people, not that pendant? i remembered that was a time that i dun DARE to wear the cross coz i felt i just isnt living up to my Saviour's name. im like..hmm... tarnished His name. but now, i do wear a cross. it is to remind me that i am a Christian and it is not i who live BUT CHRIST who lives in me...

I can still remember the caustic comment of one of my high school teachers, 25 years later. "Why would you want to wear that? Isn't it like having a miniature gallows on a chain around your neck?"

HE was pointing at the cross that I'd taken to wearing. Why, his sceptical eyes were asking me, would a bright young man with his life before him hang a ghoulish symbol of execution around his neck?

"Because in becoming a Christian I have died, and my life is now hidden with Christ in Good. It's no longer I that live, but following in his footsteps, I expect my daily life to include hardship and suffering, because such is the fate of everyone in this world who chooses to follow the Crucified One. And so what better thing to label myself with than the sign of the cross."

That's what I wished I'd said. Instead , i gave a silly grin and shrugged, and said the first thing that came into my head, "Because it's cool", thereby demonstrating that my non-Christian teacher understood more about the cross than I did at the time.

It is a ghastly symbol, an image of weakness, suffering, horror and shame. That's why it's such a apt symbol of the scandalous message of Christianity,a message that is folly to the 'wise' amd unacceptable to religious trumphalists.

FAITHFUL FRIEND
by Steven Curtis Chapman and Twila Paris

(Twila)Everyone knows you
As a man of honor
I am glad to know you
Simply as a friend
You've always taken
Time to be my brother
And I'll be standing by you in the end

But I will never put you on a pedestal
I thank the Lord for everything you do
I'll be there to pray for you and for the ones you love
I believe that He will finish all He's started in you

I will be an open
Door that you can count on
Anywhere you are
Anywhere you've been
I will be an honest
Heart you can depend on
I will be your faithful friend.

(Steven)I am one of many
Whose path has been made clearer
By the light you've carried faithfully
As a warrior and a child
God has used you greatly
To encourage and inspire
You've remained a true friend all the while

So I will never put you on a pedestal
Cause we both know all the glory is the Lord's
And I'll be there to pray that He will keep you by His grace
And I always will remind you to be seeking His face

(Together!)I will be an open
Door that you can count on
Anywhere you are
Anywhere you've been
I will be an honest
Heart you can depend on
I will be a faithful friend

(Twila)Should it ever come your time to mourn
I will weep with you
And every single time you win
I'm celebrating, too

(Together!)Oh, I will celebrate with you…
I will be an open
Door that you can count on
Anywhere you are
Anywhere you've been
I will be an honest
Heart you can depend on
I will be a faithful friend

I will be faithful
I will be a faithful friend.

have been playing this on my computer... a beautiful song... can we reali find such fren in our lives? i guess we can, but not easy.
and i guess, that person will be my better half. to be there whenever i nd him, and always remind me to seek His face. :) and of coz, whenever he nds me. :D

RELATIONSHIP

something interesting happened this morning. to cut a long story short. she msg me that she is unhappi and after some questions and answers, i realised that is a relationship problem. then she says she wants to noe more of my frens. hm... ok.

i realised many of my frens of or near my age are having the same problem. well, and my answer to them will always be: have the right focus! and noe who is the right person u r looking for in ur life! and u r rite! i am referring to the Lord Jesus Christ! ppl start to look for someone in their lives coz they are lonely. so they thot looking for a partner, a relationship will solve their problem. but then, the problem is never if u foudn the right person, but the right focus. the loneliness proble will be always there coz it is a problem that is there since and before the fall of man.

God creates man coz God desires companionship. So He creates Adam. God sees that Adam needs someone to help him, so He created Eve. When both sinned, God has to chase them out of te garden. So a void appears in the heart of man. because teh reason y man is created is for companionship. and though eve is with him, he is never totally clear of this void. loneliness. heard of this very similar quite before: u can be in the midst of thousand men, yet feel alone. lonely. why? coz the issue is we nd to come bakc to wat we are originally created for.

of coz, God creates Eve for Adam, thats y thats marriage. but ultimately, if our hope is set on a PERSON, it will NEVER be right! y? so is not a companionship problem but a perspective problem. coz man tends to fail ppl. isnt that right? is true! ok.. dun wori. i am not saying we shld trust no one. u will be one miserable person if u trust no one and can turn to nobody. i am one who trusts everybodi, but then i only put on my hope on the Lord Jesus Christ. neither put ur hope on things, money. they cant move and are temporal. they also will failed. God never fails and He is eternal!

of coz, toking abt relationship problems, is not that i dun hv, but like i said, i dun put my hope there, so i dun put my priority there. so naturally, when problems come, it is not so much of a big problem. i have left this to my God Almighty. i simply trust that He will take care of it. i dun wan put myself in a situation that causes certain thing to happen and then whine over it when things turned. honestly i dun trust myself to be able to handle such things. ha... IM IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH EVERYBODY, AND MY LORD JESUS CHRIST!

ok, sounds cliche. but is true.

TRIBULATION

i was reading something on the net that i shldnt be reading last 2 days.. wat do u think it is? ha.. is the life of hitler! well, i read it coz i accidentally saw it when i was searching for some things abt the Rape of Nanking.(and well, the reason y i was searching for that is another mystery). anway, i came to this site which states the genocides made thru the centuries, and so i came to the Genocides of the Jews.. and i just thot to myself: wat exactly happened, and y does Hitler hate Jew so much? and since i had wanted to find out abt the holocaust, i decided to read it.. his life was told, and i realised that Hitler wasnt a very smart man and he wasnt a good leader exaclty. but how he can actually conquer so many nations is by trickery, lies and by barbarity, not a man of honour by any standard! of coz, he is influenced by satan. well, he was a strange, hysterical man. a man that doesnt accept correction since he was young. mayb spoilt by his indulgent mother. anyway, one talent he has that helped him in his whole life- the gift of the gab. he can tok and persuade so well that everybody will usuali be cheering and clapping for him at the end of a speech. but anyway, i still dun reali understd the whole notion of him hating Jews.no Jews had did him any wrong at all during his whole life. He just hate Jews coz of some articles he read and some of his own wrong ideals abt them. well, thats it! and he killed millions of Jews! and he himself might also be a quarter Jew(but he din noe that of coz). i can only say that he was one used by the Lord as a vessel of wrath to bring judgment against the Jews(i am not against Jews btw. im not an anti-Semite!)

anway, while reading it, somehow, an uncomfortable feeling came to me. i realised that it may not do me good spiritually to read abt an evil man. a fear also gripped me somehow as i started to think abt the Great Tribulation that will be coming. Will Christitians be able to run away from all these when the Ani-Christ comes? the Bible says it will be a time that nobody can buy anything, food or watever without the sign of the Beast, the economic mark of 666. can i endure that? and of coz, more than that, the tortures that will come. i do not know how similar the wars and that will be, but i noe it wun be easy since it is the call the GREAT TRIBULATION by the Lord Himself. i can only ask God to preserve me, and of coz make the right decisions everyday in my life, so when the enemy comes, i will be able to deter it by the sheer obedience to God.

we are to prepare for the Jews. the whole world looks upon it to c wat the world will become.
ok, i shall not meditate anything abt that evil man alreadi. Philippians says we are to mediatate things that are true, good, noble, lovely, praiseworthy, of good report and such... 8 gates to pass before we mediate on it. so realised, there is nothing good, noble or lovely abt him.

"Finally, brethren, whatever things that are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue, and if there is anything praiseworthy - meditate on these things." Phil 4:8

MUSCLE STRAINED!

today i was much better than ydae..except for one thing.. though my tonsils are not that swollen anymore, i realised one thing when i try to eat... my muscle gets strained.. yar..that cannot be worst! i eat in pain..in fact even if i drink a bit more water, my muscle near my chest and the upper back start to strain...arghh.. and thats rather painful... and now even if i hv the appetite to eat, i cant, coz i will be so put off by the pain that i rather dun eat. sigh.. i reali than belivee that adage that says, "能吃是福“ ( "it is fortunate that u can eat")... well, actuali i believe in this sentence v long liao.. ever since i realised i hv some frens who cant eat..due to some diseases, so somehow i thank God that i am perfectly healthy and alrite to eat.. so, gers! pls dun keep complaining when u r alrite k?? just eat lah.. but of coz, im not advocating that u shld binge on food coz is not healthy too! moderate will do.. and eat things that u like..hee...

anyway, again spending much of my time playing computer games after studied another chapter of my mktg..ahhaa...so pathetic..ok..im continuing after updating this... well, and to say the game i was playing was quite dumb..it is Bejewel 2... but then the game is less than shining(pun intended) initially it looked quite stylo-milo...then i started to get bored coz the game like abit low budget kind, then keep repeating itself till i a bit sianz..and it starts to feel a bit dumb..and wun game over one leh... and i marvelled at myself, i actuali played it for abt 3 h??!! duh~ ok..who's the dumb one? ahhaa..

I'VE GOT THE POPS!

hvnt been bloggin for a few days.. partly coz i wasnt in the mood to... y? i've got the pops! yar..chicken pox!... :( wasnt feeling well... but today was... quite good :) a good sign..hehe.. the 1st few days, reali feel like dying...sighz... muscle aches and fever for the first 2 to 3 days, then the unbearable itch for the next 2 days... and so, i've been spending my time on my bed... not that i want.. so today, i spent some time standing, and doing some stuff... not productive though, but just to make myself more relax and more awake..hehe... i revised a chapter of my mktg!(wow..so hardwkg! boh bian, exam coming u noe??) but then, the rest of the day, i have been playing games online..ahhaaa... and i think i spent far too much time sleeping last few days that now my neck is aching... from all the lying down!! mayb wrong posture also...

anyway, im far much better now!:D so happie! but then i realised that ulcers are coming my way..sensed a few coming out, shld be by tonite... now im still tortured by my swollen tonsils... cant eat much things except some liquid... and i hv been complaining to some of my frens..i ant stand the sight of myself!! ok..hv been avoiding the mirror wherever possible...ahahaa.. sounds like the ostrich who hides its head to pretend it din c the enemy..ahhaaa... anyway, hopefulli..hopefulli, i will up fresh tmr! then i can study properly..hehe...:D

i was thinking... y did God create chicken pox?? hmm... and somehow i was surfing on the net gathering some info on chicken pox, most contains the same stuff except this one... says that chicken pox occurs when the liver ... forgot...ok, look below..

Chicken pox arises from the elimination of toxic fat or fatty acids through the hair fat glands.

The chemical burn from the purging of waste products though the skin causes the characteristic blister of this disease. This occurs when the liver is congested and cannot perform its eliminative function and metabolic waste matter (toxins) is then thrown into the bloodstream. These toxins in the blood must be discharged, so nature uses vicarious avenues of elimination, or "substitutes".

When these bile poisons (from the liver) in the blood come out through the skin, we get skin conditions manifested by rashes, boils, acne, etc. Or they come out through the mucous membranes (inside skin) manifesting as various catarrhs, like chicken pox. Thus, the skin is "substituting" for the liver, or a vicarious elimination is occurring through the skin.

Food And Drugs Are Contraindicated

During the more acute and involved forms of toxemia, such as measles, chicken pox, fever, or flu, the liver is much too busy neutralizing toxic wastes to be bothered with digestion of food. Therefore, to facilitate the elimination of this waste, fasting on distilled water is essential in such cases. This accounts for the lack of digestive juices produced, and the loss of appetite that accompanies these illnesses.

(Dr. Mercola Note: Please be very clear that distilled water is not appropriate for long term use. You should use bottled spring water or filtered water.)

so, it is actuali not recommended to eat much during chicken pox..coz the liver is not free to digest the food..if eat too much, may cause liver over exertion instead... interesting..i never knew chicken pox is lidat..coz of the liver...

A GHOST A RUMOUR CREATED

i think this is quite funnie. just read it from the electric newspaper. somehow, i hv to say that it is so true..haha..read below...

THERE'S a ghost near the lift, JM told his 7-year-old son. 'I saw him myself the other day. Very frightening!'

'I don't believe,' the boy said. 'If you saw him, then I'm sure he saw you, and why didn't he suck your blood?'

'Because he's looking only for 7-year-old boys, especially the naughty ones who play near the stairs when their parents tell them not to.'

'I don't believe. Ghosts only come out at night.'

'This one comes out only in the day because he knows little boys don't come out at night. He even asked me about you but I pretended I never heard of you. Luckily, he cannot walk more than 13 steps away from the lift so as long as you stay away from there, you'll be OK.'

The boy's face turned white. When he had to enter the lift the next day, he held on tight to his mother's hand. When she saw the look on his face, she said: 'Have you seen a ghost or something?'

He answered with a blood-curdling scream that could be heard across two blocks.

The next morning, his mother rang the family doctor to report that her son had developed a sudden fever. She didn't think her doctor's expertise applied in this 'special case'. She whispered (in case the ghost was listening) that something 'unclean' in the lift had disturbed her boy.

'Mrs JM,' said the doctor. 'Those things disappeared long ago. Today's ghosts don't know how to operate lifts. Bring your son over. And have a word with your husband about this.'

'No point. JM doesn't believe all these things,' she said, and hung up.

One day, about a week later, when JM stepped out of the lift, he found his neighbour's aged father sprinkling some water in front of it.

'Somebody could slip on that wet spot and hurt himself,' he thought. So he said: 'Uncle, you better be careful.'

'Oh, so you heard about it too, didn't you?' the man replied. 'Somebody said he jumped off the building that's why his head is bloody.'

JM thought: 'Who let this lunatic out of the asylum?'

Then, over the next couple of weeks, things started to get really busy outside that lift.
JM found one old lady stacking a few cut limes, flowers, and incense by the side of the lift door. Some nutcase stuck a colourful religious icon next to the button on Monday which some other nut removed on Tuesday.

JM saw some cheeky teenagers trying to push their screaming girlfriends into it. One joker rode up and down the lift one night howling like a wolf until the NPC cops took him away.
At work, JM's colleague told him about how people had discovered a ghost living in a lift in a block somewhere.

'A lot of people have seen this ghost, including my own cousin,' he said. 'People in the block said the ghost is harmless, and that they have seen him there for over five years.'

JM had no idea that this ghost was a descendent of the one he had created. Until a couple of NPC officers knocked on his door to make routine enquiries about the goings-on around his landing.

He swallowed nervously before he said: 'Well yes, it's a bit of a nuisance to see people coming and going, but as for the ghost, I'm not worried. It's probably just a rumour started by some...some... silly idiot.'

IN ALL THY GETTING, GET UNCTION!

NO MAN is greater than his prayer life. The pastor who is not praying is playing; the people who are not praying are straying. The pulpit can be a shop-window to display one’s talents; the prayer closet allows no showing off.

Poverty-stricken as the church is today in many things, she is most stricken here, in the place of prayer. We have many organizers, but few agonizers; many players, few pray-ers; many singers, few clingers; lots of pastors, few wrestlers; many fears, few tears; much fashion, little passion; many interferers, few intercessors; many writers, but few fighters. Failing here, we fail everywhere. The two prerequisites to successful Christian living are vision and passion, both of which are born in and maintained by prayer.

The ministry of preaching is open to few; the ministry of prayer – the highest ministry of all human offices – is open to all. Presentday preaching, with its pale interpretation of divine truths, causes us to mistake action for unction, commotion for creation, and rattles for revivals.
The secret of praying is praying in secret.

A sinning man will stop praying, and a praying man will stop sinning.

*excerpt taken from Why Revival Tarries by Leonard Ravenhill

MASKS

am jus glancing thru a book i bought for my sis a few years back..i wonder if she had read it, but i doubt so.. coz she dun like to read..AT ALL!

anyway.. just feel like putting this part in the book here...

The More Mature You Are, The Fewer the Masks You Will Wear

Immature people try to hide their weaknesses. Mature people recognises that it is in their weakness that God is strong. The people who are ashamed of their imperfections walk in pride trying to protect their images and reputations. Mature Christians realise that it is not their responsibility to look good or to protect themselves.

so, im not sure if u r quite surprise that Christians put on masks...ha... actuali yar, they does... and like it said, the more immature ones that are afraid of letting ppl noe abt their true self. well, and i hv to say almost all ppl do put on masks, regardless Christians or not.

however, i hv one thing to comment abt this. Christians ought to find their fulfilment in Christ alone, and nothing else. many ppl are insecure abt themselves, but in God, we found his unconditional acceptance when we come to Him. He welcomes us with open arms. and upon seeing Him daily and fixing our eyes on Him, slowly, we would wan to expose ourselves to Him, and stop looking ourselves and protect ourselves. just the apostle paul who says that he counts all things dung, so that he may win Christ. well said! Christians are not perfect. but Christians are ppl who do wan to change when they recognised their wrongs and sinful nature.

ha..somehow... i just felt my thoughts' a bit jumble up! :P

A LOW DOOR

At the top of the hill, guarding the way to the Highway, stands so guant and grim... the Cross. There it stands, the Divider of time and the Divider of men. At the foot of the cross is a low door, so low that to get thru it one has to stoop to crawl thru. It is the only entrance to the Highway. We have got to go thru it if we wld go any further on our way. This door is called the Door of the Broken Ones. Only the broken can enter the Highway. To be broken means to be "not I, but Christ." There is in every one of us a proud, stiff-necked "I"...

Before we can enter the Highway, God must bend and break that stiff-necked self, so that Christ reigns in its stead. To be broken means to have no rights before God and man. It does not mean merely surrendering my rights to Him, but rather recognising that I haven't any, except to deserve hell. ...

In order to break us, God brings us to the foot of the Cross and there shows what real brokenness is. We see those wounded Hands and Feet, that Face of love crowned with thorns and we see the complete brokenness of the One Who said, " Not My will, but Thine be done," as He drank the bitter cup of our sins to its dregs.

So the way to be broken is to look on Him to realise it was our sin which nailed Him there. And then as we see the love and brokenness of the One Who died in our place, our hearts will become strangely melted and we shall want to be broken for Him...

A CONSTANT CHOICE

But do not let is imagine that we have to be broken only to get thru the door. Ever it will bear a constant choice before us. God brings His pressure to bear on us, but we have to make the choice. if someone hurts and slights us, we immediately have the choice of accepting the slight as a means of grace to humble us lower or we can resist it and stiffen our necks again with all the disturbance of spirit that that is bound to bring. Right the way thru the day of our brokenness will be tested and it is no use our pretending we are broken before God, if we are not broken in our attitude to those around us. God nearly always tests us thru other people. If you find yourself in a patch of unbrokenness, the only thing to do is to go back and see Christ broken for you and you will come away willing to be broken for Him...

*extracts taken from the Calvary Road by Roy Hession

embracing the cross...

*photo courtesy from donghaeng.net

PSALM 51

Art's back! that guy or rather man of God that has cause such reality in my life when he came the other time round. this time, he came back, i felt mellowed, but msg still as authentic as he is. how many ministers now can be lidat? anyway, somehow, the msg he gave left me such a solemnness of heart. actuali, i dun reali fully understand wat he was toking about, but as i was toking to a fren, i realised i do understand wat he has said, maybe not fully. but somehow, that chat cause me to grow to thoughtful and mindful heart.

he spoke on Ps 51. the need for repentance and crying out for mercy from God over our state of sinfulness, not just sin. sins are just to reveal the sinfulness in us. oh, if we understand and know wat a wretched state that we r in, we will all be crying out for mercy! mercy is not just "God spare me", but it requires judgment!

oh, i do not noe how to articulate the very words that im feeling rite now. but that God will change me into His likeness, and into His very own being. not just attending services, conferences or watsoever. but to the very bosom of God Almighty! In Christ!

IQ vs MATHS

well, i was doing an IQ test just now... i did a few before too... and how did i score?? ..hmm... usualli around 120 or so.. plus, minus... and is in the range of "above average". ha.. so wat does that mean? i'm smarter than average ppl.. well, of coz i would like to think so. but of coz, we have to define the definition of IQ first. anyway, if im having an above average IQ, y issit that i have problems with my maths?? oh.. was trying to do my maths, and i simply cant. or rather, i simply cant comprehend the idea of the x, y, z and lg and ln..and dun tell me abt calculus...i simply fret! i think i will have better appreciation of trigonometry..haha... ohh..they simply dun appeal to me at all..and i simply dun understand the logic behind all that! im such a person if i cant understd, i cant remember... is that call an above average IQ??! mayb, i cn analyse things and understand concepts.. visualise?? hmm.. i dunno.. i dunno... ha.. anyway, those scientific IQ test i did always placed me in the "above average" category.. so is a good thing lah...ahhhaaa~ just mayb i nd to noe how to use it..ahhaaa...wat am i toking about??

the more impt thing is to have wisdom! coz wisdom establishes a house while knowledge only fills a room with treasures. i want to have wisdom to make right decisions! and this can only be given by the Lord. wisdom from above, not below! everybody will know the importance of making RIGHT and WISE decisions.

i have been slacking in my time with the Lord :( ... spending way to much time on the net and doing nothing... arghh... urgency of the time, no time to play games anymore!! help!

WHY BLOG??

this question was posed by my fren ydae... y issit ppl will blog something online and let everyone see wat they they wrote? she cldnt understand.. haha.. i think that is a v valid question. and as i thot abt it, i believed it has to do with the ppl of this generation. before that, lemme answer the nature of human. human are naturally self-centred, and they wld like to express themselves and let others understand them. howvere, due to self-centredness or pride, they wld not liek to disclose it so blatantly. they wld rather like to find something that can let them express themselves subtly coz practically most ppl wld not liek to se ethemselevs as "simple". haha.. or at least they think they ae not. but i think, humans being humans, most think alike; however there are few diff here and there... and i dun wanna dwell on that lah... and of coz, i fell into the category too..

anyway, y blog? there's a few ansewrs to this. it is an avenue whr ppl can honeslty tell how they feel without letting ppl noe who they r, without having to tell someone face to face, a place whr there's no confrontation, no embarassment, no crticisms and yet able to let ppl noe abt their feelings which they usuali may not like to tell someone abt them. a place whr ppl can say things which he or she dun wish to say in public or to anyone, but wants to tell someone. some use it as a place of covering. in the sense that they hide themselves in this virtual world and hide thier real status and identity. there may be other reasons, but basically most are made up of this 2 types. and of coz, there are those who just wanna try it for fun, and interest die off after some time, but im toking abt those ppl lah.

well, as for me..y did i blog? is a mixture of reasons, i started it for fun (i think im one of the earliest blogger in spore..haha, having started a few yrs back) but the main reason that i started was that i want to find an avenue to pen down my thougts that i dun usually tell someone... and i can read back time to time myself abt the things that i wrote down, and also share my life with whoever may be interested, and be an encouragement to some ppl for some of things i written here. however, y dun i tell it to my frens in person? i do, some of them actuali.. but not all. and i wun noe who is reading this.. so it may easier to tell wat i wanna tell... nothing to hide(in a way) coz sometimes when we tok to ppl in person, we tend to hide something fearing that ppl will not like or dun understand...:) and of coz, there is the option to delete while toking cant be deleted away..haha

ON TO PERFECTION!

wow..2 nites in Sis Elaine's Cook mtg caused me to feel so excited abt the Word! wat she taught, the msg she had are very like wat Pst Bailey has taught, but she is much clearer, i think in the sense, she explained much more... and she also combined something i read before from difft authors and put them togther..it is like...wow..i reali do not how to describe.. but reali their msg are the same - that is go on to perfection! one cant keep staying on the salvation level and not go on.. Christian life is a progressive walk! wat is perfection? the defintion of it is to be "whole","complete" and "mature". obviously, it is not something unattainable, if not the Lord would not have want us to reach there.
"Therefore, leaving the discussion of the elementary principles not laying again the foundation of repentance from dead works and of faith toward God, of the doctrine, of baptisms, of laying on of hands, of resurrection of the dead, and of eternal judgement.
And this will do if God permits." Heb 6:1-3
i think the last verse was wat makes my heart burned. God has to permit us to go on..that is to say, God does not allow some to move on? this will nd 2 hands to clap. one may not be open toward this idea.. and thus not wanting to move on, the Lord will allow that person not to move on. so, this is a matter of desire.

on the first nite, wat seemed to excite me is the going on to perfection..i have heard b4, but i feel so amazed at the teachings. ok, i think im repeating myself..she is so clear! and her revelation was..*thumb up* and yesterday wat excite me was the coming of the Feast of Tabernacles. the last feast of the Lord which we are going to consummate... the Lord Jesus coming back, full of His glory and the harvest that's coming in! but wat excite me most abt the Tabernacle was that our body, soul, spirit will be in union with the Lord.. and we will be unison.. and thats where the laws of God will be written in hearts of flesh, not stone. wah.. i never seen it in that way b4... i was so excited abt wat i've heard.

a summary of wat was taught abt the Feasts of the Lord:
the feast of Passover: signifies our receiving of the Lord Jesus - salvation. the seed that is planted in our hearts. we receive the Holy Spirit. our spirit is made alive which was once dead. Passover's sacrifice must not have any leaven - no corruption or sin or malice beacuse Jesus has no such things in His life. nor does it contain honey which speaks of goodness coz it is not our goodness that saves us but wat the Lord has done on the cross.

the feast of Pentecost: the baptism of the Holy Spirit, giving us power to die to ourselves, deals with our soul life, the sin nature. it is also the power to witness. the seed that is watered. we will have the 9 gifts of the Holy Spirit manifesting(2 cor). however, this feast does not deal with our sinful nature coz this feast's sacrifice does contain leaven. we yield ourselves over to the Holy Spirit. again, this is not the fullness of God that many thought is coz it does not deal with our sinful nature! it is merely a little foretaste of wat is going to come. a downpayment of the redemption of our inheritance. a process of redeeming of our soul.

the feast of Tabernacles: the maturing of His sons and daughters.the seed matured. maturing doesnt just get gifts from the Lord, but we will have the 7 spirits of the Lord (Isa 11:2) - the fullness of God. gifts do not change our nature at all. this is also the place where the ark of covenant is, God's glory will come, a place when the ministers cant minister anymore coz of the glory of God, but the Lord Himeslf cmg to minister! this feast deals with our bodies. our soul, spirit so yielded to the Lord, that our bodies will be in control by the soul and spirit = union with the Lord in spirit, soul and body! we will no longer face the struggle with ourselves of "wat i want to do, i do not do, but wat i do not want to do, i do" as faced by the apostle Paul before.

that's more actuali. but i guess that summarised most of them..haha... so lets go on to Perfection! i wanna go on to the Beauty of Perfection, God's preferred dewelling - Mt Zion!

"... the Lord appeared to Abram and said to him, 'I am Almighty God; walk before Me and be blameless." Gen 17:1

TO THE NATIONS

well, ydae after exiting the computer lab, my original idea was to go home and sleep coz i had a headache.. but then i decided to wait for my fren to dscuss an issue... which i thought will be quite serious, but turn out to be alrite after all...and better than i have expected! haha..Praise God!

anyway, while waiting for her..i met another fren of mine, Steff, and we beagn to just casual tok...(she actuali wanted to stduy.,..think i disturb her..haha).. and i began to ask her something abt China..she is a Chinese u c... had a quite enjoyable time toking to her coz both of us felt called to be missionaries and we began to tok and wow..so exciting... when we mt hearts that can connect...:)

the day b4 which is thursday, Yireng asked me casually if im interested in going China for mission trip in June... i dunno y, when she said that, i felt an interest arose in me.. yes! i want to go. but i told her i got no money.well, she said," money problem is a problem that is not a problem.." haha.. actuali she answered in chinese which sounds more witty and logical as well.. english sounds a bit singlish eh...

anyway, y wld i think im interested? coz i dun use to be v interestd, that is in China anyway. the last ctry i felt i was called to is China...:P haha.. but lately, i felt myself developing an interest in China! just a few days ago, i started praying in chinese during my QT which i was so surprise! coz i wasnt apt in praying in chinese at all coz i dun pray in chinese! so it must be the Lord coz on thsoe days, somehow i just felt praying in chinese will be of bettter expression than in english...but is wierd lah.. not logical..but logical also..haha...guess im contradicting myself...

anyway, im not sure whether is from me or the Lord.. but i have to say, this year somehow i feel so excited of the thought im going overseas... coz my mum asked me to accompany my maid to the Philippines for a visit during the holidays..hehe.. when i heard that, i quite excited..haha... but i might have attachment..so all these are all not confirmed yet.

yar, and for the China trip, i have asked the Lord to give me a specific sign if it is HE who wants me to go, is not a difficult sign nor an ez one... and afterall, i do not want to be a burden if im going..u c, if the church has to pay fopr me to go for the trip, i was wondering if i was more of a burden than a blessing... but for me to save up was almost impossible coz im now owing money to the telcos... and im not wkg as well...so how? so if im reali to go, God has to be the one who will supply it coz He is my Provider. but again, back to the point, does HE want me to go??...

IN SCHOOL...

haha..im now in school computer lab doing nothing... why?? so early?? actuali not early also lah.. but is coz i look at my timetable wrongly! arghh.. had a headache now coz i slept late ydae..having drag myself up from the bed and come to school and realising the LT is not open, nor o n the E-Board kept me in suspicion..and alas! my suspicion came true... no class today! is next week!! *duh*

anyway, im now in the computer lab buring a cd... and so at the saem time, having nothing to do, decide to update my an entry here..haha... shld go home and study hor? ;P

ydae nite i was catching some "worms" in my computer..haha... spend me some time.. but sadly to say i cldnt eradicate all of them..."them"?? u mean a lot?? haha... got 2 lah... and the funny thing is they cant be found!! so, i have to ignore it for the time being... im infected!! :( ydae i made an entry here too.. andi was thinking shld i have left wat i said here... and u noe wat? the entry isnt captured! haha... i think God is making that decision for me.. haha